I'll start with my best friend situation.
I've never been good at keeping a best friend until my current best friend. we've been best friends for about a year and a half and people associate us with each other fully. He was even living at my house for about 4 months. He'll be moving away in a week and he's already in the city looking for work. He's moving in with his old best friend and I know some things are going to change. My girlfriend already lives close to where he's moving to and I won't have time for both of them on the weekends which is the only time I have to go to the city...
Not to mention that my best friend turns into another person entirely when he's with his other best friend for more then 2 days. Hell, he's brought up his own concerns about this. He's going to change a lot and so am I.
My last best friend is afraid of me. i changed so much in the year he went and lived and trekked across Ireland that He's kind of afraid of me.
I dunno... fear is just consuming the overtone of my gut feelings right now.
Now my girlfriend situation.
I'm with a girl I love.... but there's a problem. I'm still more in love with another girl who's a lot younger then me. I always liked her more but I started dating my gf because she was closer to me and closer to my age.
I'm not goign to disrupt the current situation I have surrounding me because it's beautifully well put together by a year of crazy mishaps and random relations. I do love my gf and I want to help her a lot... i don't think in the long run we'll be together forever though.
(Oh yeah theyre both bi too... totally fucks with my head... crazy ass fantasy's)
I want the next few months to slide by so i can just see what happens.
Sorry this is so rhetorical. Just spilling my mental anguish somewhere worthwhile.
I've never been good at keeping a best friend until my current best friend. we've been best friends for about a year and a half and people associate us with each other fully. He was even living at my house for about 4 months. He'll be moving away in a week and he's already in the city looking for work. He's moving in with his old best friend and I know some things are going to change. My girlfriend already lives close to where he's moving to and I won't have time for both of them on the weekends which is the only time I have to go to the city...
Not to mention that my best friend turns into another person entirely when he's with his other best friend for more then 2 days. Hell, he's brought up his own concerns about this. He's going to change a lot and so am I.
My last best friend is afraid of me. i changed so much in the year he went and lived and trekked across Ireland that He's kind of afraid of me.
I dunno... fear is just consuming the overtone of my gut feelings right now.
Now my girlfriend situation.
I'm with a girl I love.... but there's a problem. I'm still more in love with another girl who's a lot younger then me. I always liked her more but I started dating my gf because she was closer to me and closer to my age.
I'm not goign to disrupt the current situation I have surrounding me because it's beautifully well put together by a year of crazy mishaps and random relations. I do love my gf and I want to help her a lot... i don't think in the long run we'll be together forever though.
(Oh yeah theyre both bi too... totally fucks with my head... crazy ass fantasy's)
I want the next few months to slide by so i can just see what happens.
Sorry this is so rhetorical. Just spilling my mental anguish somewhere worthwhile.