Igotnoname
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I was always alone, had only a few friends that left me...now I got only 1 who is going for 3 years away for work. I had also this other friend who no longer cares about me just because I am not smart enough to get higher education which is the other problem I have.
I tried but the schools wont accept me so I guess im stupid ..even my family tells me so. I live in Slovakia and to find a work here is a pain in the ass even with the highest possible education. The unemployment rate is 14% and the area where I live got only like 300 jobs, some jobs are 75 km away :x
Im 20 and had only 1 girlfriend but after 2 years she found someone who is what ill never be able to be, tall, handsome with goood paying job. Women never showed interest in me so I guess I was lucky and should be happy to at least had that relationship.
Im underweight even if I eat as much as possible but the other day when I check my weight its still the same Even tried medications. Im 5 7 tall got ugly face and bad eyes so I have to wear glasses ..very bad vision so I cant have a driving licence.I wont even mention my other health problems as Im already feeling like im writing a book
Had depressions for too long but Im out of it already, was suicidal for a few years and now I no longer care cause if I would think about everything I would die of heartattack
My family is small, im totally different than my parents, we got nothing in common at all so we rarely talk to each other.They even told me once that if I want to die I should go and die, they said they dont care Xq
Im the only christian in my family which is why I didnt kill my self as it is considered as murder. Well at least that helped me not to end it cause I was close many times and professionals didnt help.
The meaning of my life was to find a woman thatll love me for me and some ok job as I never cared too much about money. Now its just the 2 hours long training of Iaido {martial art with katana} during sundays.
Im sorry for my english and the long text. I just had to write it down somewhere so please no hate
I tried but the schools wont accept me so I guess im stupid ..even my family tells me so. I live in Slovakia and to find a work here is a pain in the ass even with the highest possible education. The unemployment rate is 14% and the area where I live got only like 300 jobs, some jobs are 75 km away :x
Im 20 and had only 1 girlfriend but after 2 years she found someone who is what ill never be able to be, tall, handsome with goood paying job. Women never showed interest in me so I guess I was lucky and should be happy to at least had that relationship.
Im underweight even if I eat as much as possible but the other day when I check my weight its still the same Even tried medications. Im 5 7 tall got ugly face and bad eyes so I have to wear glasses ..very bad vision so I cant have a driving licence.I wont even mention my other health problems as Im already feeling like im writing a book
Had depressions for too long but Im out of it already, was suicidal for a few years and now I no longer care cause if I would think about everything I would die of heartattack
My family is small, im totally different than my parents, we got nothing in common at all so we rarely talk to each other.They even told me once that if I want to die I should go and die, they said they dont care Xq
Im the only christian in my family which is why I didnt kill my self as it is considered as murder. Well at least that helped me not to end it cause I was close many times and professionals didnt help.
The meaning of my life was to find a woman thatll love me for me and some ok job as I never cared too much about money. Now its just the 2 hours long training of Iaido {martial art with katana} during sundays.
Im sorry for my english and the long text. I just had to write it down somewhere so please no hate