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It never occured to me to google "so lonely" yet look what popped up. Isolated in small town nebraska - no car, only a pre-paid cell phone with less than 60 units. Artist who can sell, writer who can't write anymore. Husband that is emotionally abusive and, although 46 years old seems more like he's 17. Lots of years struggling with self-concept issues that I thought I had licked until he reminds me of "what I really am". Blah, blah, blah. I know (in my head) that "I'm good enough, smart enough and people like me" but (in my guts) feel like I am right back where I was. Just need to get it out and everyone I know only wants me to hear their problems because "I can always leave". Yeah, right. And do what? Go where? Stuck between a rock and a hard place. Tried all the "get counselling" (excuse spelling errors), "there are places for you to go", ... Well, guess what. Mostly it is trade one form of control for another. Just a bad morning, I guess. Thanks for being here.