grainofrice24
Well-known member
I know I know...life is a series of peaks and valleys, but I'm in a ******* crater, and am wondering if I'll ever make it out alive.
Just need to get this off my chest and u guys are the only ones I'd ever have the balls to say this to.
Lately all I can think about are things like:
I always say the wrong thing...
I am a cold cruel calculated heartless *******.
Why do I suffer for people who don't even care?
Every decision seems wrong before I make it.
Nothing is devoid of regret.
I can't take 40 more years of this.
I had enough 10 years ago...
I got nothing left to do but die...
There are no iron bars, there is no lock and key
But walls of flesh and bone is where my prison will be...(that one rhymed...but you get it right? - For some...it's not life, it's a life sentence)
Theres something wrong with me that would best be solved with a bullet in my head.
At what point do you stop trying and realize that hope is just a trick that you fell for...
What do you do when deep down inside, in your most private place, in the pit of what's left of your shattered soul you know love and happiness are never going to happen...because they shouldn't...
I want to watch me die with my hands around my throat.
Someone I truly respect, whose dedication and loyalty I truly admire broke down and admitted, that to him his life could not end soon enough...it shook me to my foundation. What hope do I have...I dont stand a chance.
I'm not doing myself any favors by staying alive.
I'm not like you...you can never understand. It's genius really. If I tried to explain it to you, you'd think I'm exaggerating, or you wouldn't believe me, or you'd just think even less of me for saying it. What can you do but keep your head down, your mouth shut and do your ******* job...
If you read all that I'll buy you a beer if we ever meet.
Just need to get this off my chest and u guys are the only ones I'd ever have the balls to say this to.
Lately all I can think about are things like:
I always say the wrong thing...
I am a cold cruel calculated heartless *******.
Why do I suffer for people who don't even care?
Every decision seems wrong before I make it.
Nothing is devoid of regret.
I can't take 40 more years of this.
I had enough 10 years ago...
I got nothing left to do but die...
There are no iron bars, there is no lock and key
But walls of flesh and bone is where my prison will be...(that one rhymed...but you get it right? - For some...it's not life, it's a life sentence)
Theres something wrong with me that would best be solved with a bullet in my head.
At what point do you stop trying and realize that hope is just a trick that you fell for...
What do you do when deep down inside, in your most private place, in the pit of what's left of your shattered soul you know love and happiness are never going to happen...because they shouldn't...
I want to watch me die with my hands around my throat.
Someone I truly respect, whose dedication and loyalty I truly admire broke down and admitted, that to him his life could not end soon enough...it shook me to my foundation. What hope do I have...I dont stand a chance.
I'm not doing myself any favors by staying alive.
I'm not like you...you can never understand. It's genius really. If I tried to explain it to you, you'd think I'm exaggerating, or you wouldn't believe me, or you'd just think even less of me for saying it. What can you do but keep your head down, your mouth shut and do your ******* job...
If you read all that I'll buy you a beer if we ever meet.