I decided to start this thread tonight, because I have been seriously deluded. I should know better than to expect anything more than the usual, but again I let my personal feelings and moral ideals get in the way.
I have been coming to this site since May and I truly found it to be a place of solace and helpful advice. Full of caring and wonderful people who only to want to help others. However, tonight I was highly disappointed. I've felt a little out of my element recently when I have come here.
I found I remember why i cut myself off from other people to begin with. Talk of sex with all kinds of people, pornography, lifestyles that make me wonder why we have all kinds of problems with diseases. I guess this is one reason I don't do so well with friends and why guys never would approach me in clubs. I just look like a biotch who isn't gonna put out.
Anyway, I'm really thinking I don't want to help much anymore. I'm thinking I don't want to talk much anymore. I think I should just stay in my wasted, hate filled, puke every time my man touches me relationship, because I find meeting new people to be a disappointing endeavor.
I'm not totally dilusional. I know people will be people and most of society shares todays views of ettiquette. I, however, get told that something is wrong with me, I need to lighten up, I'm just a prude, I'm too honest or a bible thumper. I'm none of those things. It's no wonder I feel lonely and like there is no one who understands me. I'm too old for my age.
I'm not sure where else to go with this. I'm just full of sadness and disappointment.
I have been coming to this site since May and I truly found it to be a place of solace and helpful advice. Full of caring and wonderful people who only to want to help others. However, tonight I was highly disappointed. I've felt a little out of my element recently when I have come here.
I found I remember why i cut myself off from other people to begin with. Talk of sex with all kinds of people, pornography, lifestyles that make me wonder why we have all kinds of problems with diseases. I guess this is one reason I don't do so well with friends and why guys never would approach me in clubs. I just look like a biotch who isn't gonna put out.
Anyway, I'm really thinking I don't want to help much anymore. I'm thinking I don't want to talk much anymore. I think I should just stay in my wasted, hate filled, puke every time my man touches me relationship, because I find meeting new people to be a disappointing endeavor.
I'm not totally dilusional. I know people will be people and most of society shares todays views of ettiquette. I, however, get told that something is wrong with me, I need to lighten up, I'm just a prude, I'm too honest or a bible thumper. I'm none of those things. It's no wonder I feel lonely and like there is no one who understands me. I'm too old for my age.
I'm not sure where else to go with this. I'm just full of sadness and disappointment.