heretostay
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i really like coming on these sites. its so nice to come on here, say what i want to say, and not have to worry about all the social ramifications.
that being said, i had a pretty crap-tacular week with my husband. he just flew off the wagon. everything has been going pretty good for us and then he just had to go and loose his mind.
relationships are the strangest things to me. i was so emotionally removed from the world before i met my husband that i never cared about anything anyone else did. boyfriends came and went and it made no difference to me. i never fought with anyone. i remember one boyfriend having a fit because i didnt text him enough and i thought he was very strange. i had no idea what he was taking about. I had another boyfriend take me to a beach house, to some really pretty waterfall where he said he wanted to have our first kiss. i thought that was pretty odd. And then there was the boy who said to me one day that he'd wanted to talk to me about something important but couldnt because of how i was acting. I was curious why he would want to talk to me and what would make him think i cared what he had to say. he was hurt and i thought that was so strange. I had a couple boyfriends propose to me and i thought they were very odd. i never understood why they wanted to get married.
and then i met my husband and i dont think ive stopped fighting for three years straight. i feel like im living out my karmic debt. seriously. i feel like tracking down a couple of my exe boyfriends and telling them that i had no idea how they were feeling, but if its anything like this, then im so, so sorry. i hurt. a lot. and i care a lot. i cant just walk away. its the strangest thing.
that being said, i had a pretty crap-tacular week with my husband. he just flew off the wagon. everything has been going pretty good for us and then he just had to go and loose his mind.
relationships are the strangest things to me. i was so emotionally removed from the world before i met my husband that i never cared about anything anyone else did. boyfriends came and went and it made no difference to me. i never fought with anyone. i remember one boyfriend having a fit because i didnt text him enough and i thought he was very strange. i had no idea what he was taking about. I had another boyfriend take me to a beach house, to some really pretty waterfall where he said he wanted to have our first kiss. i thought that was pretty odd. And then there was the boy who said to me one day that he'd wanted to talk to me about something important but couldnt because of how i was acting. I was curious why he would want to talk to me and what would make him think i cared what he had to say. he was hurt and i thought that was so strange. I had a couple boyfriends propose to me and i thought they were very odd. i never understood why they wanted to get married.
and then i met my husband and i dont think ive stopped fighting for three years straight. i feel like im living out my karmic debt. seriously. i feel like tracking down a couple of my exe boyfriends and telling them that i had no idea how they were feeling, but if its anything like this, then im so, so sorry. i hurt. a lot. and i care a lot. i cant just walk away. its the strangest thing.