EyesSetToBeFree
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I'm 19 years old, I am a "recovering" drug addict, and I am lonely. To start off, I'll tell you a little bit about my past. I started using when I was about 14. It was "fun" for a while, meeting different people all the time, and not really giving a honeysuckle what happens to me next. Just as long as I was happy at the moment, I was alright. I've moved around a bunch in my life. And every place I've been, I've always made friends with the "druggies". So, not only was I addicted to the drugs, I was addicted to the attention that they brought me. (if that makes any sense) When I was about 17 I started getting in a bit of trouble. I'd get kicked out of my house weekly or parents calling the law on me, because they had found something that linked to my drug use. The first time I got arrest I was 17, and that's when honeysuckle started going downhill. I got into messing around with needles and chasing the tweakers, just to get high. It seemed like everything that was going on in my life had just stopped, just so i could get high. My parents left me, and so did the rest of my family. I was living on the streets with no place to go, and I had noticed what had happened to my life, real ******* fast. I stole from innocent people and did all kinds of crazy honeysuckle, just to get high. After I got high, I would just sit ALONE and think about my life. I knew that this was not what God had in plan for me. I tried suicide multiple times with overdoses. It would never work though, I would just wake up the next morning, pissed off at the world. I've been in and out of jail and even got the prison threat. I've been in rehabs about 3 times, since I was 17. I recenlty just finished a 30 day program and I thought it helped a lot. I was sober for a good 3 weeks. But at the end of the three weeks, I started feeling like honeysuckle, because I was always alone. I feel that I don't belong anywhere and that I'm living life through a ******* window. I've got suicide on my mind, alot. But, I don't know if I'm ready to die. I just want to be happy. If you've got any helpful words on this, please send them my way.
sorry, I didn't mean for this to turn into a reading assignment.
God Bless
sorry, I didn't mean for this to turn into a reading assignment.
God Bless