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WallflowerGirl83
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I know I haven't been on here in a long time. I was trying to focus on myself for a long time cause I usually help people and put people's problems first before my own. Usually do this all the time, I sacrifice myself to help other people. I've been doing this all my life. However right now my life is at it's lowest right now. And it all started when my doctor prescribed me Klonopin. I started taking it for anxiety and for a little bit it started to help me but after awhile I started to notice that my hands would shake as I was smoking a cigarette. Soon after that the littlest of things would give me anxiety and I would have to take an anxiety pill to make myself more relaxed. I started to question myself and ask myself was I always this anxious and the answer was no.
Second I started to urinate a lot, I'm not crazy when I say this but I would urinate frequently. This was pretty much the last straw in my book. I stopped taking it and gave the medication back to my mother. I was on them for about a month. I started withdrawing. Let me tell you, they were so intense, I seriously thought about ending my life. I got these intense headaches, backaches, I couldn't eat anything, I couldn't sleep, I had dry mouth, my allergies was intense: hay fever. All day long I literally had to lay in bed and keep a heating pad on my back and a icepack on my head. Anytime I smoked, I would get very bad anxiety but sometimes I couldn't help myself cause I couldn't sleep. I cried on the back porch and started thinking about the way my life was before and how I wish I could have rewound back time and told myself never to take these pills. After awhile things got a little better for me, I could eat again but everything would just go right through me. I had such bad diarrhea that I took Imodium and than I was constipated for days and my stomach would hurt. It was like a never ending battle.
Pretty soon things started to lighten up for me a little bit, but I could tell I had a low grade fever and my head was feeling really hot. When I looked this up at online it said it was part of the withdrawal's. And I was even sweating at night too which freaked me out but it was also apart of the withdrawals but they subsided after awhile. However the frequent urination did not go away. Sometimes I went so much, it started to worry me. So I went to a walk in clinic cause my primary doctor wasn't able to see me and it came back positive for leucolytes and said it looks like I have a bladder infection and gave me Cipro for it. I took it and it helped a little bit but I was still urinating frequently. This was frustrating me so much, I ended up going to the a different doctor and this time they said I have no UTI or bladder infection. Now I feel like I'm losing my mind, cause I keep going back and forth thinking I have something more serious going on or it's the Klonopin. I'm having trouble going to sleep right now cause I seriously feel like something is wrong with my body. People on this different forum who all withdrawaled on Klonopin keep telling me it's from Klonopin but I keep thinking that something else is seriously wrong with me. And I can tell people on that Forum are started to get very frustrated and angry with me. I can't say that I blame them cause I'm a worry wort okay, I worry about so much stuff and I wish it would stop. I told my mother to take me to a specialist and I'm not sure if she will or not. I do know however is that she thinks that I'm losing my mind and she's never believed me about me withdrawling from Klonopin and either has my doctor who told me that I must be dying of some disease. And when my psychiatrist told me this, I started researching so many diseases and disorders online. My life is pretty much falling apart right now cause of this medication. I just want this all to stop! I just want things to go back the way they used to be.
Sorry for so much text, but I had to get this out of my system.
Second I started to urinate a lot, I'm not crazy when I say this but I would urinate frequently. This was pretty much the last straw in my book. I stopped taking it and gave the medication back to my mother. I was on them for about a month. I started withdrawing. Let me tell you, they were so intense, I seriously thought about ending my life. I got these intense headaches, backaches, I couldn't eat anything, I couldn't sleep, I had dry mouth, my allergies was intense: hay fever. All day long I literally had to lay in bed and keep a heating pad on my back and a icepack on my head. Anytime I smoked, I would get very bad anxiety but sometimes I couldn't help myself cause I couldn't sleep. I cried on the back porch and started thinking about the way my life was before and how I wish I could have rewound back time and told myself never to take these pills. After awhile things got a little better for me, I could eat again but everything would just go right through me. I had such bad diarrhea that I took Imodium and than I was constipated for days and my stomach would hurt. It was like a never ending battle.
Pretty soon things started to lighten up for me a little bit, but I could tell I had a low grade fever and my head was feeling really hot. When I looked this up at online it said it was part of the withdrawal's. And I was even sweating at night too which freaked me out but it was also apart of the withdrawals but they subsided after awhile. However the frequent urination did not go away. Sometimes I went so much, it started to worry me. So I went to a walk in clinic cause my primary doctor wasn't able to see me and it came back positive for leucolytes and said it looks like I have a bladder infection and gave me Cipro for it. I took it and it helped a little bit but I was still urinating frequently. This was frustrating me so much, I ended up going to the a different doctor and this time they said I have no UTI or bladder infection. Now I feel like I'm losing my mind, cause I keep going back and forth thinking I have something more serious going on or it's the Klonopin. I'm having trouble going to sleep right now cause I seriously feel like something is wrong with my body. People on this different forum who all withdrawaled on Klonopin keep telling me it's from Klonopin but I keep thinking that something else is seriously wrong with me. And I can tell people on that Forum are started to get very frustrated and angry with me. I can't say that I blame them cause I'm a worry wort okay, I worry about so much stuff and I wish it would stop. I told my mother to take me to a specialist and I'm not sure if she will or not. I do know however is that she thinks that I'm losing my mind and she's never believed me about me withdrawling from Klonopin and either has my doctor who told me that I must be dying of some disease. And when my psychiatrist told me this, I started researching so many diseases and disorders online. My life is pretty much falling apart right now cause of this medication. I just want this all to stop! I just want things to go back the way they used to be.
Sorry for so much text, but I had to get this out of my system.