As things stand, the wedding is off. We only have one guest left. The only person who wants to come is the girls' dad. Maybe he should bring his girlfriend. They can be my witnesses and he can give me away.
There must be something wrong with me. Not even my parents want to come to my wedding. It's devastating. My fiancé has no one to invite, his mother died a few years ago and I believe his father is also dead, but he left when my fiancé was little, he hardly talks about his dad. He's sad his mum won't be there, but he says he'll be happy just to be with the girls and me.
He's being very kind. So kind, I feel guilty for not being happy, but he says that's all right. I had a cuddle with the girls when they got home. They're in bed now, but they won't be asleep all night! I do love them. I don't want them to grow up too fast, but I love the thought of them getting married one day, I'll be so proud and happy.
Thank you, ladyforsaken and Vanilla for replying. I'll just have to try, I suppose. I hope over time it will hurt less. I am angry as well as sad. So far, I've always forgiven them no matter how much they've hurt me. This will be harder to forgive. Maybe this is what will finally make me realise nothing I do will ever be right. But I have a new family, they're the important ones. I don't want to hurt them because I'm too hung up on my parents. There are 3 people who love me. I shouldn't want or expect more.
I need to do some things around the house, I've done almost nothing today. But I'll come back later if I can. You've done so much for me, I'd like to help you.