Basically, I'm really young (like 20) and so I know I'm going to be naive so I just want advice from other people....
I think I'm falling in love with this girl I met 4 months ago. I don't know what falling in love feels like but this is as close as I've ever gotten to it. I HONESTLY think she is the most gorgeous girl I've ever seen, Like I could watch her all day long...and I like talking to her, she's very cute and funny. She's also so strong-hearted and SO KIND! I love how she volunteers at charities and gives her time away.
There's only one problem, and I'm incredibly selfish for even saying this (IM SO SORRY...me = :club: )
She has a degenerative medical condition, and it TEARS ME UP! She's absolutely lovely and doesn't deserve it at all! I really want her to have the highest quality of life she can get! 5 years down the track from now she might not be able to walk....15 years down, I might have to help her move around.
I'm scared of getting committed to her because of this...and I feel like a selfish turd :'(
I try to reason with myself and come up with really silly things like:
"oh the worlds going to end anyway so may as well spend the last 5 years being happy with her" or
"oh I can increase her quality of life by so much!" or
"oh my social skills are so underdeveloped, I would be lonely if I didnt ask her out"
BUT I know that if I do ask her out, my parents will absolutely FREAK! My mum might even go as far as kicking me out of her house...trust me, my parents aren't exactly soft of these issues. And they care more about me "keeping the family honour" than anything else. If I dated someone with a disability they would kill me.
What should I do??
I'm 90% sure this girl likes me because we have flirted a bit....and she kissed my cheek :shy:....and I absolutely just melt thinking about her....OH GOD I don't know what to do...I wish I knew
I think I'm falling in love with this girl I met 4 months ago. I don't know what falling in love feels like but this is as close as I've ever gotten to it. I HONESTLY think she is the most gorgeous girl I've ever seen, Like I could watch her all day long...and I like talking to her, she's very cute and funny. She's also so strong-hearted and SO KIND! I love how she volunteers at charities and gives her time away.
There's only one problem, and I'm incredibly selfish for even saying this (IM SO SORRY...me = :club: )
She has a degenerative medical condition, and it TEARS ME UP! She's absolutely lovely and doesn't deserve it at all! I really want her to have the highest quality of life she can get! 5 years down the track from now she might not be able to walk....15 years down, I might have to help her move around.
I'm scared of getting committed to her because of this...and I feel like a selfish turd :'(
I try to reason with myself and come up with really silly things like:
"oh the worlds going to end anyway so may as well spend the last 5 years being happy with her" or
"oh I can increase her quality of life by so much!" or
"oh my social skills are so underdeveloped, I would be lonely if I didnt ask her out"
BUT I know that if I do ask her out, my parents will absolutely FREAK! My mum might even go as far as kicking me out of her house...trust me, my parents aren't exactly soft of these issues. And they care more about me "keeping the family honour" than anything else. If I dated someone with a disability they would kill me.
What should I do??
I'm 90% sure this girl likes me because we have flirted a bit....and she kissed my cheek :shy:....and I absolutely just melt thinking about her....OH GOD I don't know what to do...I wish I knew