lonelyistheworld
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Here because I Googled that I was very lonely... and came upon a link to here...
Not good at making friends, or lasting ones anyways. Acquaintances, ok. Ok in groups of 1 or 2, after that, not.
Not very secure in myself. Realize I need someone outside my wife for support, for when she is not there or the reason I feel the world has been pulled out from under me... like recently.
When just a kid, always felt that whenever someone seemed interested in me, that they were just "putting me on", having fun with me. Now, it appears, I may have proof, in the one "I regret this the most" moment of my life, that she was just "putting me on" for a joke...
I have been dabbling with the "perception is reality" thing, where I put that mask on that everybody wears, say "I'm fantastic", even when I don't mean it, in the hopes that I will finally begin to believe that. Funny, it seems to be working. Better than moping and playing my "cry me to sleep" playlist I put on my iPod...
Not good at making friends, or lasting ones anyways. Acquaintances, ok. Ok in groups of 1 or 2, after that, not.
Not very secure in myself. Realize I need someone outside my wife for support, for when she is not there or the reason I feel the world has been pulled out from under me... like recently.
When just a kid, always felt that whenever someone seemed interested in me, that they were just "putting me on", having fun with me. Now, it appears, I may have proof, in the one "I regret this the most" moment of my life, that she was just "putting me on" for a joke...
I have been dabbling with the "perception is reality" thing, where I put that mask on that everybody wears, say "I'm fantastic", even when I don't mean it, in the hopes that I will finally begin to believe that. Funny, it seems to be working. Better than moping and playing my "cry me to sleep" playlist I put on my iPod...
