JustSomeGal said:
I should have worded this better. My over confidence is due to a distorted reality. I wish things were how they used to be, but they never could be without the lies involved. I was on top of the world, kind of high on life, if you will. I guess I'm just terrified to value myself any higher than the pit I am stuck in due to some of this stuff going on.
Don't sell yourself short, you can get out of that pit. My sister and I call this the "rut". And several times in life we have called each other and complained about being in the "rut", where at one point we were conquering our world, and then we either couldn't climb any higher, or we fell back down.
I fall into the rut a lot, actually dangling on the edge at the moment. I know it's hard to dig yourself out when you feel like the world is against you.
A little exercise I do when I feel this way, is keep a little journal. That journal is title "What did I do today to change my current situation", I only write in it when I am having these struggles and times in life. And everyday I try to change my current situation. And it can be small tasks, like I organized my desk to make working easier. I believe there is a thread on here you can do that in to use if you like.
But anyways, after a little time, I start feeling better and don't need it.