I never know what to say here but I'm having a really hard time right now.
I'm going to turn 30 in a few weeks and this panic keeps washing over me. My life is no where near what I hoped, wanted or expected it to be. I feel stupid and useless. I'm just getting older and uglier and wasting away.
I'm terrified I guess.
I don't have any real friends and the ones that did matter I just let drift away. I'm in love with a man who hardly cares that I exist and I can't really remember the last time I even went out.
I know I need to sort this all out but I don't know where to start and everything I try doesn't work out.
Its just getting harder and harder to keep going.
I'm going to turn 30 in a few weeks and this panic keeps washing over me. My life is no where near what I hoped, wanted or expected it to be. I feel stupid and useless. I'm just getting older and uglier and wasting away.
I'm terrified I guess.
I don't have any real friends and the ones that did matter I just let drift away. I'm in love with a man who hardly cares that I exist and I can't really remember the last time I even went out.
I know I need to sort this all out but I don't know where to start and everything I try doesn't work out.
Its just getting harder and harder to keep going.