Hello everybody!
For quite sometimes, I've felt weird towards society. I mean, I've always felt like this whole society thing was a bit absurd but since two months, the feeling got stronger.
Since the beginning of July, I've decided to stop drinking, even during social gatherings. Parties and stuff are things I have never understood, especially huge ones which sometimes involved clubs or something equal. I always had the impression that people were actually doing as if they were having fun, because, let's be really realist, where is the fun in awkwardly moving your body to some poor remix of a terrible song? Thus, I was drinking heavily during those situations, to make time pass and so.
But then, I understood that nothing obligated me to appreciate that, so I stopped consuming alcohol and decided that if I wasn't having fun, I'd leave earlier and go home to watch funny pictures of cats instead.
But here starts the problem. Since I stopped drinking, I discovered that I wasn't actually having any fun during meeting with friends in bars and such. Also, I've remarked how much alcohol is important in everybody's life. My friends' lives orbit around social activities featuring drinking, they always talk about their nightlife, how much beer they drank, how much shots they took, how hammered they were and they will blame every poor decisions they make on alcohol (like cheating on their partner, insulting people, ...).
Yet, I can't blame their irresponsibility, I was kind of like that months ago and they are college students. I don't condemn drinking either. Who am I to judge of people's activities?
I never really fitted in society in general, but I was lucky enough not having problems making friends. But now, I feel really outside because every young people of my age (19) just like going to parties and drink and showing off about their sexual conquests, and that makes me really awkward because I don't have any interest whatsoever in all that. I don't feel like going out with them anymore because it takes me too much energy to pretend I am alright.
And, yesterday night (it was friday), while going home from some birthday party, I noticed that there were heavily drunk people, especially young ones, everywhere. And it really annoyed me. So either the whole society really likes to piss in public places or I'm actually possessed by the spirit of an 80 y.o grumpy old woman.
Edit: Forgot to precise, I live in Europe, in a magical land where you can start drinking beer at 16 and liquor at 18.
For quite sometimes, I've felt weird towards society. I mean, I've always felt like this whole society thing was a bit absurd but since two months, the feeling got stronger.
Since the beginning of July, I've decided to stop drinking, even during social gatherings. Parties and stuff are things I have never understood, especially huge ones which sometimes involved clubs or something equal. I always had the impression that people were actually doing as if they were having fun, because, let's be really realist, where is the fun in awkwardly moving your body to some poor remix of a terrible song? Thus, I was drinking heavily during those situations, to make time pass and so.
But then, I understood that nothing obligated me to appreciate that, so I stopped consuming alcohol and decided that if I wasn't having fun, I'd leave earlier and go home to watch funny pictures of cats instead.
But here starts the problem. Since I stopped drinking, I discovered that I wasn't actually having any fun during meeting with friends in bars and such. Also, I've remarked how much alcohol is important in everybody's life. My friends' lives orbit around social activities featuring drinking, they always talk about their nightlife, how much beer they drank, how much shots they took, how hammered they were and they will blame every poor decisions they make on alcohol (like cheating on their partner, insulting people, ...).
Yet, I can't blame their irresponsibility, I was kind of like that months ago and they are college students. I don't condemn drinking either. Who am I to judge of people's activities?
I never really fitted in society in general, but I was lucky enough not having problems making friends. But now, I feel really outside because every young people of my age (19) just like going to parties and drink and showing off about their sexual conquests, and that makes me really awkward because I don't have any interest whatsoever in all that. I don't feel like going out with them anymore because it takes me too much energy to pretend I am alright.
And, yesterday night (it was friday), while going home from some birthday party, I noticed that there were heavily drunk people, especially young ones, everywhere. And it really annoyed me. So either the whole society really likes to piss in public places or I'm actually possessed by the spirit of an 80 y.o grumpy old woman.
Edit: Forgot to precise, I live in Europe, in a magical land where you can start drinking beer at 16 and liquor at 18.
Not implying that you said otherwise.
