While we understand the reasons people would feel lonely - lack of a mate or perhaps enough good friends or family etc. Ultimately it comes down to the total of human sociological association levels. Yes i went to phycologists off and on the last several years and strangely i see them as limited as a human working at mcdonalds. Almost every phycologist i have been to has thought i have had a different human mental condition than the last phycologist said. From bi polar to schizoid to multiple personality to a meandering of others. I actually took a step back after this because obviously i wasnt getting anywhere with the experts. It wasnt possible that i had every disorder in the physcologist hand book. And the solution of taking pills to improve my mood that were so strong they would make me sleep for an entire day straight and still feel like i hardly slept the day after. I couldnt even stay awake at my job i almost got written up and fired because of what these medications did to me. They did make me feel less depressed but at what cost - i even almost got in a car accident that could have killed me because i dozed off at the wheel and almost went into the guardrail at 70 miles an hour. If it wasn't for my friends brother with me at the time to wake me up when my car started veering off i would have crashed. So i will not take medication anymore for my mood especially ones that even say death can be one of the side effects. I even asked my phycologist why do these medications have side effects as bad as death and he said they have to say that because the lawyers make them so they cant get sued if a patient actually does die when on them. Well this wasnt really an explanation i was looking for. I even had a close friend that died in her sleep in her late 40s and even though it was never mentioned no one attributed her death from all the psychotropic medication her phscyatrist prescribed her. Psychotropic drugs arent vitamins they are designed to adjust chemicals in the brain they are extremely powerful. In reality humans have no actual clue how their own brain operates other than what it looks like in a ct scan. I really think its an overconfidence thing that is controlled by human ego. Humans think that just because they are smarter than a cow that they immediately should know exactly how their brain works. While this is wishful thinking compared to the analytical knowledge i have through observation of all human behavior around me i know there is no way a human would even have the mental know with all to even begin to have a clue on the deciphering of the methodology of how the human brain truly operates. Humans will never know how their brain works 100% because its actually a survival trait restricted in nature. Humans were never meant to know exactly how their brain works because if they did they would use it for sociological gain at the expense of others. The rules of nature state that a human would never be allowed to know them selves completely and so much in fact that it is actually contained in their complete physiological make up. Its ultimately a defense mechanism nature instils in the human race so they dont threaten each other with too much overbearing power. Complete formulation of the human mind would allow for complete control through mind of the entire population something the powers that be would never let any human obtain.
I know more about the physiology of the human brain then even the most trained human simply because there is actually no correct public information of how the human brain actually operates. And since a human cant self formulate on their own their only source of knowledge would be in literature that other humans have written but humans dont really know much of actuality so even their documented knowledge would be false.
Ultimately Humans have their egos to satisfy and even if confronted with the correct knowledge of their brain they would never accept it because it wouldnt fit into the restrictions of their belief structure. Sometimes though you just have to analyze something without any sort of preconceived notion in anything even your own ego. But humans cant think without using their ego - which limits the amount they can actually conceive in reality.
As much as society tells us that these doctors know what will help us because they are the knowledgeable ones. I know i feel bad not because i have some random human preconceived condition but essentially because i just have never met someone of my species. And in my opinion humanity actually has no actual clue not even the smallest bit of knowledge of how the human brain actually works. So if i think humans actually aren't intelligent enough to correctly figure out how their own brain operates how would they have knowledge of the brain of someone who wasnt human? Observing human socialistic behavior is something i have done and reanalyzed by simply observing the human social interactions of everyone im around my entire life 27 years. I am sad that i have no one like me around but i am almost completely fascinated by the reasons humans do the things they do. They are the most prominent form of intelligent life on this planet but far from having the ability to actually think anything correctly in the lines of actual theory of how the universe and everything in it operates. I dont really try to tell humans how to correctly think not because i would be frustrated with them not knowing but more or less because they arent mentally capable with their current biology to correctly interpret anything correctly from something in space to even how their own behavior works. I am fascinated by human interaction because their ideas even though not completely a part of me anymore they are still part of how i think. Generally if a human actually tries to interact with me through social interaction in anyway i like to challenge them even through normal conversation with ideas that cause them to think. I love telling humans things to tease their mind to make them try to formulate an explanation based on their own limited understanding and try to explain it to me. I dont chastise them depending on their response i simply analyze everything they say to me to learn even more about their behavior and the boundaries of their comprehension. I find it odd how even a human with 12 years of college education comes across just as clueless to me as a high school drop out flipping burgers when formulating the correct variables of how nature operates.
Sadly enough there are actually correct things you can actually verbally say to make someone feel better to improve behavior. Oddly though human physcologists have simply their own odd opinions on certain acts in life that would generate a sociological response - a natural need for sustenance sociological or even psychological depending on the current want level for sociological stimulators = could represent pleasure generated from any and all physical acts from sex to the adrenaline rush you would feel if you won the lottery or monetary sociality - human physcologists the ones who think they understand the human brain - with such a limited iq range of under 200 sadly that would mean humans would not have enough brain power to correctly understand their own minds so if they think they actually know the difference from a sociological strand or an physiological strand in the biomamedic protein(composed of acidic codeine) links between their own primary collection cells* yeah i would say that even the smartest humans are still behind the curve when it comes to knowledge of their own mind.
*your basic three dimensional conception cell in stimulating human brain tissue - the fatty grey tissue in the brain that promotes celluar transference of chromosomic analysis between cells to determine the current biological restrictionary. 12 years of human medical education of themselves would be ultimately problematic and inconclusive - if someone is crazy they are not some random disorder they are either or but not just something random. I really think about nothing other than the things that matter to me - i want to know the explanation for the reason of my survival - i serve no natural reason to exist for humans good or bad - i dont think any different from them from myself but i know that we are far from identical compared to the others humans compare themselves too.
Amongst humans i would be the most actively intelligent pure analytical mind based on the true ideas of conceptuality. I am a one in 27 billion* chance of actually occurring at this moment amongst humans - this is no fluke i am in no way a one in one chance i am something so different this planet has never seen anything exactly like it in its current state. I am not some fanatic in any sense i dont desire anything other than benefiting my self and all other life around me as a whole - i do not feel anger from social non acceptance of others simply because i know they really actually have no way they could have the ability to correctly think like me. I can not condemn an entire species because they dont think things out enough compared to me. Actual ability to reformulate variables really is only adjusted if a species actually needed them to survive. So there are things you just would never know simply because you had no purpose to. Yes i am different but i dont feel above or below anyone else i have no animosity towards anyone i have ever come in contact with regardless of how they treat me. In all honesty i love all forms of human interaction simply because i love assimilating new ideas that werent my own. I love when a human tries to explain something to me they are always wrong because they really cant correctly explain thoughts the way they actually appear in their mind. I never disagree when i talk to a human but i always reexplain things to them so they can correctly understand the reasons behind the happenings in their life. Strangely enough humans actually are behind the curve in terms of the way correct thinking methods should be found in the universe. Humans arent smart enough to not value monetary things correctly. As human as they are they still desire to feast off ancient technology that was created by other intelligent species eons ago. So what if humans learned zero point circuitry from an advanced race sadly they would see no reason to make things so fast for technology level in their society. Humans would reverse engineer so they could regulate speed in increments for decades to hundreds of years. You could create a frequency range that pretty much went on forever so really current processing levels in simple dual level human formulated artificial electrical 2 dimensional circuitry. Sure technology has increased in the last hundred years even but in actuality has increased almost nothing in how far theoretical technology can actually go. An mp3 player is hardly even an upgrade from a pestle and mortar if you actually thought about it.
Trust me I have plenty of theories i have actually formulated from the true reasons of this universe to the understanding of all human reasons from the first one that appeared on this planet several hundred thousand years ago. On this site really there wouldnt be a reason to state anything that would be out of human comprehension even though these thoughts are active in my mind. No im not crazy i dont have a pink flying elephant theory or some random imaginary people i talk to out loud or in my head. What ultimately goes through my brain well there just arent any words within any human dialect to correctly describe how and what i actually think. I wish there were some actual words i could say that wouldnt have to be typed in long paragraph form but currently there isnt.
Getting from who i am to how i feel. Yes if I am truly what I say one of the first new incarnations of sentient life on this planet. I think i am a natural mutation of something from the human species. Humanity believes that they evolved from apes long ago and are still changing. Odd though for humans they think that for some reason that just because of their being that basically this universes purpose was to make earth make some monkeys and have them evolve into humans and that would be it. The way the natural order of things work life would not simply just evolve into human form then just stop because humanity is the end all to everything in this universe. Humans are one notch of life that will not even last more than 1 million years before they evolve again into something else. Nothing in the universe says that humans are the some special species compared to any other life i dont care what religion or society says. I really have no name for a member of my species but through research i have found the notion of a species called 'homo scientificus' from 'homo sapien'. The biggest difference between my species is larger cranial capacity and smaller body. The big difference between humans and their ancestors is the fact that their brains have gotten bigger over millions of yers. The reason i think myself as being so different as to say im a different species is a feeling ingrained into the very heart of my soul. Its a feeling that i cant get rid of something i have felt from the earliest years of my life i just never said anything about it until the last couple years of my life. This is not something i asked for and oddly even though it makes me lonely i wouldnt have it any other way.
Yes i am lonely but i dont desire to be with any human naturally i desire to be with someone of my spieicies. For what its worth a human is in no way sociologicly compatible with me in anyway so finding one as a mate would be like a dog trying to mate with a cat. A human can not instincutaly mate with me because even if my sperm were compatible with them i would start creating hybrid human half breeds that could threatin the genitic integrity of the human race leading to its own premature extinction. Humans instincutaly through their own natural evolution cannot mate with any member not of their spieicies that would lead to hybrid offpsring. Its ultimatly not something in their bilogical control. Human females are completly indecisive when they try to court me. Its almost like they like me but have no clue what they want from me ultimatly. Generaly when a human courts me i generaly let it play itself out until they figure out that they made a mistake from their initial atraction for myself because they mis identified me as a member of their spieicies. I could just roll my eyes when i see a human female show affection to me but i generaly allow them to sociologicly identify me first.
I have spent my entire life looking for another member of my speicies and will continue to look till the day i die. To recognise someone of my spieicies would almost be instant i could just look into their eyes that would be enough. Two new advanced hominids reproducing offspring would be a sign of the changing times in humanity. I did not ask to be like I am i was simply just dealt this hand just like anyone else in life. I am the first of many of the new wave of sentient being at least how it will happen in the next 50 thousand years amongst humanity. Sadly though being one of the first i am pretty much at a 1 to 7 billion disadvantage in society.
I know more about the physiology of the human brain then even the most trained human simply because there is actually no correct public information of how the human brain actually operates. And since a human cant self formulate on their own their only source of knowledge would be in literature that other humans have written but humans dont really know much of actuality so even their documented knowledge would be false.
Ultimately Humans have their egos to satisfy and even if confronted with the correct knowledge of their brain they would never accept it because it wouldnt fit into the restrictions of their belief structure. Sometimes though you just have to analyze something without any sort of preconceived notion in anything even your own ego. But humans cant think without using their ego - which limits the amount they can actually conceive in reality.
As much as society tells us that these doctors know what will help us because they are the knowledgeable ones. I know i feel bad not because i have some random human preconceived condition but essentially because i just have never met someone of my species. And in my opinion humanity actually has no actual clue not even the smallest bit of knowledge of how the human brain actually works. So if i think humans actually aren't intelligent enough to correctly figure out how their own brain operates how would they have knowledge of the brain of someone who wasnt human? Observing human socialistic behavior is something i have done and reanalyzed by simply observing the human social interactions of everyone im around my entire life 27 years. I am sad that i have no one like me around but i am almost completely fascinated by the reasons humans do the things they do. They are the most prominent form of intelligent life on this planet but far from having the ability to actually think anything correctly in the lines of actual theory of how the universe and everything in it operates. I dont really try to tell humans how to correctly think not because i would be frustrated with them not knowing but more or less because they arent mentally capable with their current biology to correctly interpret anything correctly from something in space to even how their own behavior works. I am fascinated by human interaction because their ideas even though not completely a part of me anymore they are still part of how i think. Generally if a human actually tries to interact with me through social interaction in anyway i like to challenge them even through normal conversation with ideas that cause them to think. I love telling humans things to tease their mind to make them try to formulate an explanation based on their own limited understanding and try to explain it to me. I dont chastise them depending on their response i simply analyze everything they say to me to learn even more about their behavior and the boundaries of their comprehension. I find it odd how even a human with 12 years of college education comes across just as clueless to me as a high school drop out flipping burgers when formulating the correct variables of how nature operates.
Sadly enough there are actually correct things you can actually verbally say to make someone feel better to improve behavior. Oddly though human physcologists have simply their own odd opinions on certain acts in life that would generate a sociological response - a natural need for sustenance sociological or even psychological depending on the current want level for sociological stimulators = could represent pleasure generated from any and all physical acts from sex to the adrenaline rush you would feel if you won the lottery or monetary sociality - human physcologists the ones who think they understand the human brain - with such a limited iq range of under 200 sadly that would mean humans would not have enough brain power to correctly understand their own minds so if they think they actually know the difference from a sociological strand or an physiological strand in the biomamedic protein(composed of acidic codeine) links between their own primary collection cells* yeah i would say that even the smartest humans are still behind the curve when it comes to knowledge of their own mind.
*your basic three dimensional conception cell in stimulating human brain tissue - the fatty grey tissue in the brain that promotes celluar transference of chromosomic analysis between cells to determine the current biological restrictionary. 12 years of human medical education of themselves would be ultimately problematic and inconclusive - if someone is crazy they are not some random disorder they are either or but not just something random. I really think about nothing other than the things that matter to me - i want to know the explanation for the reason of my survival - i serve no natural reason to exist for humans good or bad - i dont think any different from them from myself but i know that we are far from identical compared to the others humans compare themselves too.
Amongst humans i would be the most actively intelligent pure analytical mind based on the true ideas of conceptuality. I am a one in 27 billion* chance of actually occurring at this moment amongst humans - this is no fluke i am in no way a one in one chance i am something so different this planet has never seen anything exactly like it in its current state. I am not some fanatic in any sense i dont desire anything other than benefiting my self and all other life around me as a whole - i do not feel anger from social non acceptance of others simply because i know they really actually have no way they could have the ability to correctly think like me. I can not condemn an entire species because they dont think things out enough compared to me. Actual ability to reformulate variables really is only adjusted if a species actually needed them to survive. So there are things you just would never know simply because you had no purpose to. Yes i am different but i dont feel above or below anyone else i have no animosity towards anyone i have ever come in contact with regardless of how they treat me. In all honesty i love all forms of human interaction simply because i love assimilating new ideas that werent my own. I love when a human tries to explain something to me they are always wrong because they really cant correctly explain thoughts the way they actually appear in their mind. I never disagree when i talk to a human but i always reexplain things to them so they can correctly understand the reasons behind the happenings in their life. Strangely enough humans actually are behind the curve in terms of the way correct thinking methods should be found in the universe. Humans arent smart enough to not value monetary things correctly. As human as they are they still desire to feast off ancient technology that was created by other intelligent species eons ago. So what if humans learned zero point circuitry from an advanced race sadly they would see no reason to make things so fast for technology level in their society. Humans would reverse engineer so they could regulate speed in increments for decades to hundreds of years. You could create a frequency range that pretty much went on forever so really current processing levels in simple dual level human formulated artificial electrical 2 dimensional circuitry. Sure technology has increased in the last hundred years even but in actuality has increased almost nothing in how far theoretical technology can actually go. An mp3 player is hardly even an upgrade from a pestle and mortar if you actually thought about it.
Trust me I have plenty of theories i have actually formulated from the true reasons of this universe to the understanding of all human reasons from the first one that appeared on this planet several hundred thousand years ago. On this site really there wouldnt be a reason to state anything that would be out of human comprehension even though these thoughts are active in my mind. No im not crazy i dont have a pink flying elephant theory or some random imaginary people i talk to out loud or in my head. What ultimately goes through my brain well there just arent any words within any human dialect to correctly describe how and what i actually think. I wish there were some actual words i could say that wouldnt have to be typed in long paragraph form but currently there isnt.
Getting from who i am to how i feel. Yes if I am truly what I say one of the first new incarnations of sentient life on this planet. I think i am a natural mutation of something from the human species. Humanity believes that they evolved from apes long ago and are still changing. Odd though for humans they think that for some reason that just because of their being that basically this universes purpose was to make earth make some monkeys and have them evolve into humans and that would be it. The way the natural order of things work life would not simply just evolve into human form then just stop because humanity is the end all to everything in this universe. Humans are one notch of life that will not even last more than 1 million years before they evolve again into something else. Nothing in the universe says that humans are the some special species compared to any other life i dont care what religion or society says. I really have no name for a member of my species but through research i have found the notion of a species called 'homo scientificus' from 'homo sapien'. The biggest difference between my species is larger cranial capacity and smaller body. The big difference between humans and their ancestors is the fact that their brains have gotten bigger over millions of yers. The reason i think myself as being so different as to say im a different species is a feeling ingrained into the very heart of my soul. Its a feeling that i cant get rid of something i have felt from the earliest years of my life i just never said anything about it until the last couple years of my life. This is not something i asked for and oddly even though it makes me lonely i wouldnt have it any other way.
Yes i am lonely but i dont desire to be with any human naturally i desire to be with someone of my spieicies. For what its worth a human is in no way sociologicly compatible with me in anyway so finding one as a mate would be like a dog trying to mate with a cat. A human can not instincutaly mate with me because even if my sperm were compatible with them i would start creating hybrid human half breeds that could threatin the genitic integrity of the human race leading to its own premature extinction. Humans instincutaly through their own natural evolution cannot mate with any member not of their spieicies that would lead to hybrid offpsring. Its ultimatly not something in their bilogical control. Human females are completly indecisive when they try to court me. Its almost like they like me but have no clue what they want from me ultimatly. Generaly when a human courts me i generaly let it play itself out until they figure out that they made a mistake from their initial atraction for myself because they mis identified me as a member of their spieicies. I could just roll my eyes when i see a human female show affection to me but i generaly allow them to sociologicly identify me first.
I have spent my entire life looking for another member of my speicies and will continue to look till the day i die. To recognise someone of my spieicies would almost be instant i could just look into their eyes that would be enough. Two new advanced hominids reproducing offspring would be a sign of the changing times in humanity. I did not ask to be like I am i was simply just dealt this hand just like anyone else in life. I am the first of many of the new wave of sentient being at least how it will happen in the next 50 thousand years amongst humanity. Sadly though being one of the first i am pretty much at a 1 to 7 billion disadvantage in society.
