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MissGuided
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um, well.... I'm lonely. Guess that feeling is not uncommon here, huh?
So, please don't laugh or judge, I'm just being honest. I guess I am looking for connections but still sort of unsure if I really want them.
Basically, I guess I am a Daddy's girl and pretty 'traditional'. Sort of a cross between Samantha Stevens and Snow White, lol. Tend to trust way too much, try to please way too much and end up believing BS way too effin much.
I am a total girl - I wish I could say I was the cool, rocker girl or gamer chick or sporty girl or tomboy girl or badass *****...but, I'm not. I'm a total girl.
I scream at spiders, can't change the oil in my car, am horrible at finances, love shoe shopping, chick flicks and flowery gooey romance...and every other stereotype. I didn't pick it, it's just how I'm built.
But - I have a quick wit, am not a complete moron, fun to hang with and fit pretty well into most social situations. Love to cook and love when someone else enjoys it even more. I love to read, gardening, projects around the house, and CHRISTMAS!! I think I am a good listener and empathize with other's plights with sincerity.
I admit to being scared of the dark because there is no one there to protect or watch out for me. I worry every day what will happen if I got into a car wreck or the house burned down or something else terrible happened and I have to go through the after effects all alone.
I have grown to be absolutely terrified of commitment in any social or romantic relationship. Experience has taught me that although I only say or do something if I truly mean it, others do not. Most folks say or do what they mean - at that time - and then forget or disregard it when it's no longer important or convenient to them. That reality has broken my heart many, many times. And, then I recover and the cycle starts all over.
So, for now, I have accepted that I will likely be alone in life. It sucks and I wish it were different, but honestly, I just don't have much heart left to break. Better to stand on the sidelines, smile and make light-hearted chit-chat with the world until I can get home to my own world, safe and sound. I just don't think the 'real' world is ready for someone like me.
Guess that's it for now. Sorry to have rambled - thanks for listening.
So, please don't laugh or judge, I'm just being honest. I guess I am looking for connections but still sort of unsure if I really want them.
Basically, I guess I am a Daddy's girl and pretty 'traditional'. Sort of a cross between Samantha Stevens and Snow White, lol. Tend to trust way too much, try to please way too much and end up believing BS way too effin much.
I am a total girl - I wish I could say I was the cool, rocker girl or gamer chick or sporty girl or tomboy girl or badass *****...but, I'm not. I'm a total girl.
I scream at spiders, can't change the oil in my car, am horrible at finances, love shoe shopping, chick flicks and flowery gooey romance...and every other stereotype. I didn't pick it, it's just how I'm built.
But - I have a quick wit, am not a complete moron, fun to hang with and fit pretty well into most social situations. Love to cook and love when someone else enjoys it even more. I love to read, gardening, projects around the house, and CHRISTMAS!! I think I am a good listener and empathize with other's plights with sincerity.
I admit to being scared of the dark because there is no one there to protect or watch out for me. I worry every day what will happen if I got into a car wreck or the house burned down or something else terrible happened and I have to go through the after effects all alone.
I have grown to be absolutely terrified of commitment in any social or romantic relationship. Experience has taught me that although I only say or do something if I truly mean it, others do not. Most folks say or do what they mean - at that time - and then forget or disregard it when it's no longer important or convenient to them. That reality has broken my heart many, many times. And, then I recover and the cycle starts all over.
So, for now, I have accepted that I will likely be alone in life. It sucks and I wish it were different, but honestly, I just don't have much heart left to break. Better to stand on the sidelines, smile and make light-hearted chit-chat with the world until I can get home to my own world, safe and sound. I just don't think the 'real' world is ready for someone like me.
Guess that's it for now. Sorry to have rambled - thanks for listening.
