Skorian said:
NeverMore said:
Skorian said:
I totally understand man. Totally. When I was stuck in a crowd I used to feel like I was going to lose my mind. Like I didn't know where to stick my hands. Where to look. I felt like miserable.
There is this one event thing I will never forget. Back when I was a kid and there was a bomb threat. The whole highschool crowded into another nearby schools gym and I thought I was going to lose my mind.
Yep I usually stick my hands in my hoodie pockets when walking around people because I don't know what else to do with them
uh, Yea one time in high school we had this biological weapon drill where we all were crowd into the tiny auditorium and they turned off the ventilation(to stop the biological weapons of course
) I almost couldn't take it, I had trouble breathing, it was awful..
You said "used to", how did
you get over something like this?
It's not something you can think your way out of. Anxiety, panic attacks, and worring suck.
They do suck,so am I to assume you didn't get over it yourself, you sought help? Maybe I should?
But anyways, frank Warren came here Thursday and gave a lecture it was really good I got a seat in the second row because I got there 30 mins early. He talked about how post secret started how he bought an art space and handed out cards to people to write their secrets on, and how the gallery was a big success and when the gallery stopped being displayed he kept getting cards in the mail and then eventually people started writing them on post cards, and other things, really interesting how it kept going even when he stopped
. Then, he talked about his books and then he showed us a lot of secrets that weren't allowed in the book due to copyright laws or they were simply too derogatory and some of those were very good ones, one secret was from a women who had put her baby up for adoption, and 20 years later she found out where he lived and took her kids trick or treating to that house on Halloween and he answered the door, then it said she wanted to hug him but instead she walked away and cried...
After that he opened up to a period of questions and also anyone was allowed to share a secret with everyone, 5 people or so did. One guy came up there and spoke with such a strange way he said: I hate you you ******* *****, your shallow, and I hate the way you make me feel...But for some reason I'll always care about you, you ******* ignorant whore". But it came off as serious not funny at all, a girl came up that I know, shes blind and her secret was that she hated the fact that no one knew her name and to everyone she was just the blind chick, that one was emotional, I shed a tear because I've talked to her before on the bus and shes the nicest person and I did remember her name, I hope I can talk to her tomorrow on the bus..
Then he shared his secret with us, and it was that when he was little some bullies took turns holding him to the ground, holding open his eyelids and spitting in his eyes. He said it was the most degrading thing to ever happen to him, sharing secrets like that he said,helped to make it so that the secrets didn't define him he was freed from them, and he ended by saying: "Tell your secrets to the world and become who you are", or something very similar
I didn't get to meet him....I went to go to the atm machine across the campus to get money to buy a book for him to sign but it was a stupid idea because by the time I got back the books were sold out, and then I couldn't get in the line to meet him, because I wouldn't have known what to say so I just left...
It was a good experience I'm glad I got to go see that, I totally might make a post card if only I had artistic ability..