whispers said:
Sterling said:
Would you rather not have him involved at all?
At this point yes . They tell me he is always in a bad mood, he drinks alot and takes drugs. Pays no child support, when i ask for help, he expects me to get on my knees to thank him, if not i,m an ungreatfull *****.
But i dont know about the girls...they love him. Whats worst, beeing abandonned by him or beeing around him... i dont know. And when they are around people he playes the great dad role, the girls love that. He's not completely bad... i guess it could be worst...when i think of my dad...wasnt cool at all, but i still love him.
Kimi loves her mother and I very much.
She still carrys alot of hurt for being abandent
at birth.
I dont know if she sabatage her life or herself at a subconsious
level to draw attention from us to resolve her anger. The
deep desired of wanting to be loved unconditionally by her parents.
I cant mention tiff or kel to her. It has a negative effect on kimi.
That i would love someone else children but not my own.
Its like a major slapp in her face or pouring salt into her wounds.
She's still very angery at me. She definitely dont want to
share me with tiff or kels.....not especially now.
She feels it's her time to loved.
Even at her age being a young adult. She will always need to
be loved. Even now, especailly now you never stop being a parent.
She every, very angery at her mother..yet still wishes and wants
her mother back.
Not a messed up mother..A loving and caring mother.
Sassy loves kimi very much. There's days and nights that
she would cry for her own child.....
but something alway gets in the way.
Drugs and alochol abuse gets in the way of parenthood.
It makes everything more complicated than it has to be.
Logically Kimi can figure everything out.
Never the less, it still dosnt take her pains away just because
she can figure things out.
The terrible 2 is nothing compair to the terrible 22.lol
The bigger they get...the bigger their problems are.
You never ever stop being a parent.
You cringg just the same to know your own child is hurting no matter how old they are.