onmyown1979
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Do any of you feel like fate conspires against you? I think about this a lot because it seems like I'm always too little too late, like if I was in another location a little earlier that my life would be a lot easier and better. For instance there is this woman who I felt I should've ended up marrying but because of circumstances beyond my control it didnt happen. Here goes the story.
There was this girl that I met in kindergarten, I know it was a long time ago, lol. One of our first days in school we became friends and one day this small group of boys were bothering her, so she runs up to me and gets behind me and asks me to help her. I didn't fight the boys or anything but I told them to leave her alone the best a five year old could and they eased off. She thanked me and that whole year we were like two peas in a pod. That summer I couldn't wait to see her in first grade and then...she wasn't in school, neither the second or third day. This upset me and I told my mom about it, and my mom was familiar with her family and she told me that she moved to another school across town I didnt have another connection like the one I had with her the rest of the time i was in elementary school. Of course I would see her off and on over the years but it was always in a passing moment and wasn't much time for talk. Fast forward to like 2004, she worked in a building that I frequented so one day I said the hell with it and asked her out. She said that she was already in a relationship but if she wasn't she would've went out with me, like that was supposed to make me feel better but whatever. I said cool, told her to take care and walked away. Two years later when Myspace was the ish we were friends and she was complaining how this guy didn't trust her and would always get upset whenever she went out with her friends. I left her friendly advice and that she was too good to be treated like that. Lo and behold she marries this same guy and now they have a family, and little did I know that this guy was a distant cousin of mine that the rest of the
family knew about but I sure as hell didnt.
Now that were in the Facebook era and of course were friends I get to see how beautiful their wedding was, their kids and how much she loves him. Hopefully he's treating her good, but at the same time it makes me sick to my stomach because I feel that because of fate he ended up with the woman that I should've had and not trying to be arrogant, but I try to keep myself in good condition and lets just say that doesn't seem to be a priority for him. Had she never moved I feel in my heart that we'd be together now.
And my mom doesn't help matters, everytime she sees the girl out in public she acts like she's her freaking daughter in law. Thank God I wasn't there but one time at Walmart she saw her, it was raining and my mom offers to watch her daughters while she ran to her car so she can drive up and her daughters wouldn't get wet. I mean it was a nice thing to do, but I feel she should ease up on all of that. IDK, I know I need to move on because nothing is happening there, but ever since I've had a hard time finding a woman with her same spirit and in the rare times that I do, she's not interested or whatever is the case, it just sucks.
There was this girl that I met in kindergarten, I know it was a long time ago, lol. One of our first days in school we became friends and one day this small group of boys were bothering her, so she runs up to me and gets behind me and asks me to help her. I didn't fight the boys or anything but I told them to leave her alone the best a five year old could and they eased off. She thanked me and that whole year we were like two peas in a pod. That summer I couldn't wait to see her in first grade and then...she wasn't in school, neither the second or third day. This upset me and I told my mom about it, and my mom was familiar with her family and she told me that she moved to another school across town I didnt have another connection like the one I had with her the rest of the time i was in elementary school. Of course I would see her off and on over the years but it was always in a passing moment and wasn't much time for talk. Fast forward to like 2004, she worked in a building that I frequented so one day I said the hell with it and asked her out. She said that she was already in a relationship but if she wasn't she would've went out with me, like that was supposed to make me feel better but whatever. I said cool, told her to take care and walked away. Two years later when Myspace was the ish we were friends and she was complaining how this guy didn't trust her and would always get upset whenever she went out with her friends. I left her friendly advice and that she was too good to be treated like that. Lo and behold she marries this same guy and now they have a family, and little did I know that this guy was a distant cousin of mine that the rest of the
family knew about but I sure as hell didnt.
Now that were in the Facebook era and of course were friends I get to see how beautiful their wedding was, their kids and how much she loves him. Hopefully he's treating her good, but at the same time it makes me sick to my stomach because I feel that because of fate he ended up with the woman that I should've had and not trying to be arrogant, but I try to keep myself in good condition and lets just say that doesn't seem to be a priority for him. Had she never moved I feel in my heart that we'd be together now.
And my mom doesn't help matters, everytime she sees the girl out in public she acts like she's her freaking daughter in law. Thank God I wasn't there but one time at Walmart she saw her, it was raining and my mom offers to watch her daughters while she ran to her car so she can drive up and her daughters wouldn't get wet. I mean it was a nice thing to do, but I feel she should ease up on all of that. IDK, I know I need to move on because nothing is happening there, but ever since I've had a hard time finding a woman with her same spirit and in the rare times that I do, she's not interested or whatever is the case, it just sucks.