I go to gym now, for 2.5 weeks, to loose some weigth. Comepletely zero(I don't eat more then before I've strarted, I check it). That kills my motivation.
It's very hot there(they do their best, it's too hot outside), I feel terrible sweating. I just do the exercises or especially run and wait when I can stop it. Counting each second. A few times I left a few minutes earlier(then the next day I feel guilty for it and set a faster speed for running and become bored even more faster). I feel it's not right, I tried auidobooks/music, it doesn't help. If only I lost at least one damned kilo. A half of kilo.
I used to go to a climbing hall and I liked it but it's not an option anymore, a gym seems to be the only.
The same is with my learning - I can't get a result, I should learn faster to get a result as if I learn one thing there appear 5 more that are necessary for a career. I failed 5 interview, I'm afraid to send my CV somewhere else.
And I can't get motivated at my current work, it's so routine I spend a lot of time just sitting, staring in a screen and waiting when the time is over. I'd better do smth more useful in this time but I think it's not right so I try to focus on my work but in fact do nothing.
I don't know maybe I'm too lazy but I'm always in hurry and when I'm doing nothing(like waiting a bus or drinking a coffee) I also count the seconds as time goes and I always feel like I'm lating.
And it also kills my motivation for everything as I can't moove faster.