Unacceptance said:Let's play some video games man. No one has anything to live for. Eating shitting, and earning a pay check. Just gotta find good ways to occupy your time.
SighX99 said:worst situation: realizing I have absolutely nothing and no one to live for, and I truly know that suicide is not an option. im stuck.
sigh...........................
Lonesome Crow said:Played your guitar lately ,signX99??
You can try reaching out the NA or AA in your area.
Plenty of people in your age range that found a way to stop
getting high. 100's of meetings avaliable in your area everyday.
Isn't that something you wanted to you for yourself ?
It's probably one of the greatest gift you can give to yourself.
You'll get lots of help and support aside from just not using
or getting high. Make friends and meet babes in there. Have a good
time too. They have fun activites you can participate in.
Hang out with people after meetings and what not too.
There's even conventions you can attend in difernent cities from
time to time. Thousands attend and have a good time without getting high. Meet babes there too....i did
Some recovery babes are cool..they're spiritual becuase recovery includ a spiritaul living program.
They're have more comapssion, understanding, and patient. Really down to earth loving people if
they're clean and sober and working their program. It's real and not syntetic. When you love you turely
love. When you're happy you're truley happy. And when you're sad..you're really sad..but that's okay
that's why they're call support groups.
It was hard at first for me to attend becuase i didn't have a court card.
i was too bussy with my job or schedules
but it got to the piont where I felt life was numb and piontless.
I finally took or made the time to attend those meetings. It was a life saver.
Recovery is not boring that's for sure.
I can't really explain it....but I don't feel like I'm alone, alone anymore after I
got clean and sober. I get lonely from time to time but not insane aloniness
before i got sober. Before i could be in a crowded room and feel lonely as hell.
Today i can spend time alone and not feel lonely.
You can try the 800 or google, someone will try to
asist you or get you meeting schdules.
Don't trip...you can come and go as you please in NA or AA.
There's no rules.
It's not what you assume...People in recovery come
from all walks of life...not a hype you pictured in a dark
alley. Any where from doctors, lawyer or to the girl next door.
There's even ala-teen if you wish to hang out with the younger
people.
Muscially everything started clicking for me after i got clean and sober.
Bluey said:SighX99 said:worst situation: realizing I have absolutely nothing and no one to live for, and I truly know that suicide is not an option. im stuck.
sigh...........................
I have felt like this many times and I still do kinder off. I know I well feel like this many moor times as well in tell something in my life changers. I just don't know what I should change about myself or my life. I know for me too that suicide is no longer an option. two reasons. first I ent got the bottle for that honeysuckle and the second reason is I do have a mum, dad and a sister that I would hurt very much. I ent that selfish. But non of them two reasons make anything easier to live with.
I also don't have to earn a pay check. So even moor time for me.
Silvernight said:I feel like this too when I'm down. Eating, shitting and earning a paycheck indeed... doesn't sound very motivating. In my teens, I constantly felt that a huge chunk of something was missing from life. I mean, well, seriously, all your life you do all of the above and reproduce so that your offspring could continue in the same vein, and so on. Pointless. But I couldn't really define what exactly was missing or where it's gone. I think I know now what exactly is missing though. The feeling of connectedness to everything. To the universe, to nature, to all living things, etc. We live in the illusion of complete isolation from the rest of the world, like there's "me" and there's "them" and "everything else". It's also where this intense loneliness stems from. Though some people are much better adapted to this than others. I believe we had this feeling once (thousands of years ago) but then lost it at some point. I also believe it's going to be restored, but there's no telling when.
Perhaps it was somewhat not to the point, sorry, I get carried away sometimes.
Bluey said:SighX99 said:worst situation: realizing I have absolutely nothing and no one to live for, and I truly know that suicide is not an option. im stuck.
sigh...........................
I have felt like this many times and I still do kinder off. I know I well feel like this many moor times as well in tell something in my life changers. I just don't know what I should change about myself or my life. I know for me too that suicide is no longer an option. two reasons. first I ent got the bottle for that honeysuckle and the second reason is I do have a mum, dad and a sister that I would hurt very much. I ent that selfish. But non of them two reasons make anything easier to live with.
I also don't have to earn a pay check. So even moor time for me.
SighX99 said:Bluey, it's cool not to have to earn a paycheck. Why would you want to be slaving away at some boring corporate desk job? You can do whatever you want with your time instead. The biggest downside that I see here is living alone, and not having much contact with anyone.
SighX99 said:its just..... i think its embarrasing to go to a aa meeting or NA. and i dont want to go to rehab or do in-patient. im afraid that once i go to those meetings theyll drag me to a rehab center....
the music sober thing is true. when i write music i try to stay sober.
dr.brownstone grabs u by the balls
Bluey said:Intriguing. I have thought the same as you in that one day I think everyone on the planet well relies that they have to stop acting and just show when they love someone. If you get that. I thought there was like a million different things you where trying to say in your post here. i read tho it twice. I think if i read fro it another two times it would say something else to me. I think this post is moor deep then it first appears.
Bluey said:Do you sometimes think that your about to break tho to something great, just all you need is an idea to go with. One that you feel passionate about. I believe all I need is to stumble across the one thing that I can sink my teeth into and I would achieve great things. Do you get that?
Silvernight said:If (or better, when) this awareness returns, there won't be any acting because it would become impossible. And unnecessary. I imagine there will also be no loneliness, this feeling of isolation such as we suffer from now. I wanted to say more but then I would go completely OT. Plus, I could do without being considered a total lunatic.
Silvernight said:Yes. My problem is that I have not able to figure which route exactly is the right one I need to take. I would get ideas from time to time, one stranger than another, fantasize about it all day and then next morning wonder how I could come up with something so crazy.
SighX99 said:worst situation: realizing I have absolutely nothing and no one to live for, and I truly know that suicide is not an option. im stuck.
sigh...........................times 99
SighX99 said:worst situation: realizing I have absolutely nothing and no one to live for, and I truly know that suicide is not an option. im stuck.
sigh...........................times 99
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