Little Dan
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So the best way I can describe loneliness, specifically my loneliness, is as a bubble.
What I mean when I say bubble, is that it feels like there is an invisible filter always around me, that stops me from connecting with others and enjoying my existence. I could be in a room with hundreds of people and still feel crushingly alone. I don't hear or see things as I believe others do, every sound is muffled and light seems blurry, I'm stuck completely within my own head.
Now the bonus kick in the gut of this bubble is that like all bubbles, it's see through. And to everyone else looking in, all they see is a warped version of me, oddly twisted and malformed by the surface of the bubble. The barrier both traps me and stops others from seeing me trapped, ingenious if you think about it.
I live with my one friend and I am well known at work as the guy that is constantly laughing and always happy, so there are people around me all the time. But they don't see it, and I don't know how to "Pop" the bubble.
Please understand that when I say these things, I'm speaking metaphorically. I know that there isn't a real bubble around my head and that I don't look like some weird cartoon to others. But the feelings are real. The constant disconnect is always there and the sadness that it brings is suffocating.
I suppose my point in writing this post is that I'd like to know how others describe their feelings of loneliness, and whether there are more of you with bubbles.
I can't say that writing this out has helped me in anyway but I think getting your feelings out can be helpful sometimes.
Please let me, and others know about your bubbles.
Thank you.
What I mean when I say bubble, is that it feels like there is an invisible filter always around me, that stops me from connecting with others and enjoying my existence. I could be in a room with hundreds of people and still feel crushingly alone. I don't hear or see things as I believe others do, every sound is muffled and light seems blurry, I'm stuck completely within my own head.
Now the bonus kick in the gut of this bubble is that like all bubbles, it's see through. And to everyone else looking in, all they see is a warped version of me, oddly twisted and malformed by the surface of the bubble. The barrier both traps me and stops others from seeing me trapped, ingenious if you think about it.
I live with my one friend and I am well known at work as the guy that is constantly laughing and always happy, so there are people around me all the time. But they don't see it, and I don't know how to "Pop" the bubble.
Please understand that when I say these things, I'm speaking metaphorically. I know that there isn't a real bubble around my head and that I don't look like some weird cartoon to others. But the feelings are real. The constant disconnect is always there and the sadness that it brings is suffocating.
I suppose my point in writing this post is that I'd like to know how others describe their feelings of loneliness, and whether there are more of you with bubbles.
I can't say that writing this out has helped me in anyway but I think getting your feelings out can be helpful sometimes.
Please let me, and others know about your bubbles.
Thank you.