Back in high school there was a friend of mine who had a big huge massive crush on me. I mean she was holding this crush since second grade when I opened her pudding cup for her. During those hormonal years, and talking to my/our friends about her feelings (who urged her to tell me and ask me out). She finally got up enough nerve and confessed her feelings. I tried to let her down easy, I just didn't have the same feelings for her, she was my friend and that was it.
See, she was the kind of girl who would, no matter how bad you felt, she always had it worse. You could cut yourself and she would still have it worse. Grant you she did have it difficult, early on her doctor thought she was deaf, turns out she wasn't, she just didn't pay attention to people all the time and had a speech impediment that when she talked she sounded like a deaf person would. Bad diagnosis.
We still remained friends after she told me, I wasn't going to dump a long time friendship just because we didn't feel the same. I wasn't happy that my friends knew about this and didn't say anything to me. They didn't help matters either, one of my friends I later found out kept urging her on and that she could probably change my mind.
Later at Christmas time we had a party, I really didn't want her to come because she started up with there being an "us" again. Unfortunately she came and stole my Santa hat telling me I could have it back when I kissed her. I told her to keep it. After spending the night of playing musical chairs because she wouldn't leave me alone, I was trying to have a conversation with a few of my friends. She then took the opportunity to jump up and kiss me, then asked me if I felt any different. I was pissed to say the least. She tried to apologize but by then it was too late for me.
She still didn't want to give up so as teenagers do I started to be mean to her. I mean really mean, like throwing pennies at her to make a wish on the fish (she had fish lips). Some of my friends sided with me and would tease her too just to get her to go away. Turns out they really didn't like her very much since she was always such a downer. One time a friend of mine was bouncing a half flat basket ball off the wall, it went the wrong direction and hit her square in the face. We were all shocked at first then started to laugh, she ran off crying.
My brother and another friend of ours decided to play a cruel April Fools joke on her. They told her I really did love her but didn't want everyone else to know. She started to act weird around me and told me what they said. I was furious and told her straight out I didn't love her, I had no feelings for her whatsoever. She didn't believe me so I made my brother and friend tell her the truth, it made her cry. I never talked to her again.
Years later she was working at a mall I frequented, she would try to talk to me but I ignored her. Several years after that I went through a rough patch and looked back a lot on my life. I regretted what I did to her, there was no excuse for it really. One day I stopped to talk to her and told her I was sorry for everything I did. I told her a bit about what I was going through at the time, and she fell pray to her same old self. She made it all about herself and how her life was worse.
I still feel bad about it, she did forgive me and apologized for how she acted, but its still something I have to live with. I was someone I didn't like, even though I was filled with anger at the time. I learned something from that, there was an ugly side to me I never wanted to see again.
So what have any of you ever done that you regret?
See, she was the kind of girl who would, no matter how bad you felt, she always had it worse. You could cut yourself and she would still have it worse. Grant you she did have it difficult, early on her doctor thought she was deaf, turns out she wasn't, she just didn't pay attention to people all the time and had a speech impediment that when she talked she sounded like a deaf person would. Bad diagnosis.
We still remained friends after she told me, I wasn't going to dump a long time friendship just because we didn't feel the same. I wasn't happy that my friends knew about this and didn't say anything to me. They didn't help matters either, one of my friends I later found out kept urging her on and that she could probably change my mind.
Later at Christmas time we had a party, I really didn't want her to come because she started up with there being an "us" again. Unfortunately she came and stole my Santa hat telling me I could have it back when I kissed her. I told her to keep it. After spending the night of playing musical chairs because she wouldn't leave me alone, I was trying to have a conversation with a few of my friends. She then took the opportunity to jump up and kiss me, then asked me if I felt any different. I was pissed to say the least. She tried to apologize but by then it was too late for me.
She still didn't want to give up so as teenagers do I started to be mean to her. I mean really mean, like throwing pennies at her to make a wish on the fish (she had fish lips). Some of my friends sided with me and would tease her too just to get her to go away. Turns out they really didn't like her very much since she was always such a downer. One time a friend of mine was bouncing a half flat basket ball off the wall, it went the wrong direction and hit her square in the face. We were all shocked at first then started to laugh, she ran off crying.
My brother and another friend of ours decided to play a cruel April Fools joke on her. They told her I really did love her but didn't want everyone else to know. She started to act weird around me and told me what they said. I was furious and told her straight out I didn't love her, I had no feelings for her whatsoever. She didn't believe me so I made my brother and friend tell her the truth, it made her cry. I never talked to her again.
Years later she was working at a mall I frequented, she would try to talk to me but I ignored her. Several years after that I went through a rough patch and looked back a lot on my life. I regretted what I did to her, there was no excuse for it really. One day I stopped to talk to her and told her I was sorry for everything I did. I told her a bit about what I was going through at the time, and she fell pray to her same old self. She made it all about herself and how her life was worse.
I still feel bad about it, she did forgive me and apologized for how she acted, but its still something I have to live with. I was someone I didn't like, even though I was filled with anger at the time. I learned something from that, there was an ugly side to me I never wanted to see again.
So what have any of you ever done that you regret?