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karenak
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I really do not like the person i feel my loneliness and self esteem issues are turning me into.
Technically i do have a couple of friends, one in particular who means a lot to me and we have gone through some stuff together. We do on occassions get together but it is pretty rare really. I think i may be pushing her away though. There is another women who seems to have decided to muscle in on our friendship and exclude me whilst still being smiley to me and i just want her to disappear off the face of the earth. I actually wouldnt have a problem with her if she wasnt subtlely trying to oust me but she is. The problem is, I am trying too hard now not to be pushed aside. I will ring my 'best' friend and if she is not in or possibly not answering, i will try again a number of times or/and ring her mobile. I spoke to her yesterday and we were fine and she said she was going to ring back later for a chat and didnt do. I had to fight the urge all evening not to ring her. I am turning into a bit of a psycho and i dont want to as that is the surest way of pushing one of my limited circle of friends away. Do i just wait for her to ring back like she said, what if she doesnt, have i blown it?
Technically i do have a couple of friends, one in particular who means a lot to me and we have gone through some stuff together. We do on occassions get together but it is pretty rare really. I think i may be pushing her away though. There is another women who seems to have decided to muscle in on our friendship and exclude me whilst still being smiley to me and i just want her to disappear off the face of the earth. I actually wouldnt have a problem with her if she wasnt subtlely trying to oust me but she is. The problem is, I am trying too hard now not to be pushed aside. I will ring my 'best' friend and if she is not in or possibly not answering, i will try again a number of times or/and ring her mobile. I spoke to her yesterday and we were fine and she said she was going to ring back later for a chat and didnt do. I had to fight the urge all evening not to ring her. I am turning into a bit of a psycho and i dont want to as that is the surest way of pushing one of my limited circle of friends away. Do i just wait for her to ring back like she said, what if she doesnt, have i blown it?