Was it real

[lbstanley70]

Because of the age difference, she and I went through great lengths to hide our relationship from our friends. There are very few pictures of us together. It is almost like we never existed. Yes, the memories are there, but there is no tangible proof she and I were together and that saddens me because if there isn't any proof, no evidence, did it really happen or was it just a dream?

 

[IgnoredOne]

Was it real to you? If so, what else matters?

 

[Lonesome Crow]

It might be helpful for you to google the various stages of a break up.
Those stages wont come in a particular sequnce though.
The forsite youll have wont examp from having to walk through it...but it'll give
a little bit of sanity while you're going through the rolloer coasters.

Try to take care of yourself through all of it.
Try to eat, get rest as much as you can....
Give yourself a break or take a time out.
If you have to cry or scream...allow yourself to do so.
It's very stressful or trumatizing.

I know it's difficult to do..but try to do the things you enjoy doing...your hobbie ect...etc
I play my guitar..stuff like that. Sometimes it helps other times it dosnt.

Youll go through...I love you, I hate you, I cant live with out you, was it real?, fresia you, renegotications,
grieving, oh how stupid of me your a stupid ***** I can do better, to god fucken help.

There's acceptence, letting go...all that good honeysuckle you already know.
You dont have to accept it, let go , or stop loving her. You dont have to do anything.

Post as much as you need to. Journal. Talk to others. Bounce it off of anyone that will listen.
Dont keep it all inside. Take a piece meal or let it all out...whatever way you want.
There's no right way or wrong way to go about it.

I'm sorry that you're hurt. You're not less of a man for feeling hurt. You're not less
of a man if you cry for her.

It's a major wound. You're going to feel it for a while.
Sometime we must also stop picking at it so infections dosnt set in...but must
still attend to the wounds. Not pretend you're not hurted.
Whats real is....you're hurted.

Go out with other women. Sometimes it helps other times it dosnt.

Sometimes I listen to music

Sometimes All i can do is Breathe

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[lbstanley70]

IgnoredOne, I hear you loud and clear. It was all too real to me and I know it happened but when others ask why am I down that is the issue. I lied to my friends about dating her the whole time.

Lonesome Crow, sadly this isn't my first heartbreak. I know how the ball rolls. I guess I have been in denial for such a long time and having to admit the signs were there and the whole thing was unraveling in front of me for the last eight months makes it all the more painful.

I appreciate your support and feedback. Thank you.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

I dont think you're living in denial.
You had no way of telling what was going to happen in the future when
you met her. Relationships arnt always perfect and there's no way for you
to know exactly wheather you and her work through the hard times.
Stay together or break up.

That's why relationship are so difficult.
I cant make decisions or control my partner no matter how much I love them
or been with them.

I was in a relationship for almost 15 years.

I'm going back forth with someone I love very much.
There's not a right answer for any of it.
Yes...the gray area...but there's millions shade of gray.

I'm pretty sure you probably thought about the millions of reasons...of whys?
Will, I haved.
Nothing fits of course. Cause i love her very much.
Somedays i get up and feel I wont be able to love anyone again.
And it's not that i cant get or meet other women...becuase I had since our separation.

I cant wrap my head and heart around any of it at the moment.
maybe someday I can. That's why all I can do is just keep on breathing sometimes.

 

[RJLJD]

through your eyes it was real. nothing will ever change that. stuff that happens still happened even if no one witnessed it.