Fortunately I haven't been through all what you have been put through Normski.
What you have added since I left my reply really shocked me that so many people can be so uncaring to the level of cruelty towards you in your life.
The only other thing I can think of could you maybe move away, start afresh so to speak.
Although I would totally understand if you said 'Your home is your home and filled with memories'.
All I can add is 'Please don't do anything to yourself, life is for living the best way it can be lived'.
Take care.
I have aleady moved, And guess what, regard people, nothing has changed. By and large, most people are predatory in nature, like mini packs of wolfs. They watch, scope the next victim out, regards what they know, what can use, and what value they are to them, and then they make their moves. People have gone insane, they don’t know their own minds, they/ some have some fantasy view of their selves, that somehow they have the universal all worked out, ahhah, they have not got their own mind worked out let alone the universe. Yet they persist on dictating, yes dictating to you, like they are some special spiritual Guru, that you should idolized and worship them or something. A type of Narcissism going on; I think, Their entire world falls around them, inc their house, but they persist, with this ridiculous mantra, think positive, project your mind in a positive way, be Mrs nice person and Karma will turn the world into a bag of fruit or something. Well thats not working tout to well is it; I am pragmatic, a realist, I use logic, and reason in this world to observe this reality, not fantasies. There is nothing wrong with a dream, a hope, a plan, a belief in God, even if YOU decide Gods is a Tree or a squirrel, Your choice. That’s why God gave us a choice. People just don’t get it, or they can’t, not sure which. We all share the same physical world we are in, but how we experience it, is unique to each and everyone. So we live in our own universe. I believe, God gave us this life, so that we may grown, and learn countless things, to become better people, But I am now rambling on and on. I have tried to walk as best I can. These are just a couple of observations I have made regards the 95% of humanity. I believe, Somehow, God woke me up to have a clearer picture of what this world has become, and its NOT a pretty sight . I have this picture in my head, of God, sat on thrown, with his head in his hands, shaking it back and forth, saying ON, NO, NO. Look at what you have done! Humanity has Regressed, the real pandemic today is not this supid Covid 19, its Narcissism and Wokisam 300 verson of sex. no, no no.. I identify as worm , Yea Right, If it was not so mad and sad, I am sure God would be laughing so much, he would fall off his thrown