UGLYDUCKLING
Well-known member
Okay I've been through way too many friendships,relationships and that thing where you bond with your cousins and they always end up in a bitter note...I don't know why...I have changed EVERYTHING...I tried making every fiber of my body as friendly as possible.I sort of pep talk a bunch of younger teenagers but I can't call them friends can I ?.I don't see why people end up consuming my time and leave me hanging like I was some Dirt..It happened so many times I can't keep smiling anymore...I stopped wearing my smile when I go out because of it...I just realized it today when I was chatting with a friend who likes to cuss at me and sort of treat me like his second choice..But who cares..I talked to him and I sort of just made an angry face when he spoiled a movie for me...He ended up telling me "lets not talk " and I said fine and ended up calling him an Ass when he was REALLY not talking..I know it sounds silly...But I went out of my way and told myself I value my friendship more than my ego ..And I sent him messages which he read and chose not to reply.It then occurred to me,even if people seriously cussed ME and stuff OR that I was in his place,I don't let people/him plead or I DO NOT ignore people like that ? I try to reason and forgive in a blink of an eye because I don't want people to be sad because of me.And that son of a gun just didn't reply...I mean what else do people want from me to be their friend?
What else do they want?
Why do I end up with idiots?
I just had one true friend all my life..Maybe 2...I just want to know what I should do? I don't like bragging but I went out of my way back in school so this sophomore guy makes friends before I leave,I talk to this girl in university who gets picked on and tell her she's special and a few other stuff and yet people around me treat me like crap...I'm sorry for ranting and I honestly don't like bragging but I just got to think of it,I don't deserve being treated like that...What can I do about it... :'/
What else should I do? I hate feeling lonely...and have been that way most my life...Thanks for reading..I never had the guts to tell anyone that..
Sorry for the limited vocab...I get that way when I'm on my flu pills and am angry...And my cussing dictionary goes as far a "Ass" xD
i feel way better
What else do they want?
Why do I end up with idiots?
I just had one true friend all my life..Maybe 2...I just want to know what I should do? I don't like bragging but I went out of my way back in school so this sophomore guy makes friends before I leave,I talk to this girl in university who gets picked on and tell her she's special and a few other stuff and yet people around me treat me like crap...I'm sorry for ranting and I honestly don't like bragging but I just got to think of it,I don't deserve being treated like that...What can I do about it... :'/
What else should I do? I hate feeling lonely...and have been that way most my life...Thanks for reading..I never had the guts to tell anyone that..
Sorry for the limited vocab...I get that way when I'm on my flu pills and am angry...And my cussing dictionary goes as far a "Ass" xD
i feel way better