I'm very isolated in "real" life so one of the only ways I "meet" people or talk to people outside of my family is online. Most of the time I confine that to talking to people on the site or forum I know them from. In PM's and stuff. Occasionally if we are getting on well or have been talking for a while I'll give people an email address. I think I like to keep people at arms length most of the time. As soon as it matters whether they are around or not they could hurt me so I like keeping things pretty casual. (This sounds like a problem too I guess but not the point of this thread).
Recently I left a site I'd been going on for some time and so I went a step further and gave a guy from there my mobile number. He'd already given me his a few times but I'd always been too shy and had just stuck with talking online. We have similar interests and music tastes and I figured it wold be nice to stay in touch. We'd been texting quite a bit and stuff and I noticed I'd get a lot of drunk flirty ones. I wrote them off as silly and harmless but then they got a bit more graphic and sexual. I'm kind of terrible at sticking up for myself in situations like that. Anyway my mum got a cold and I mentioned that I was worried about her because the last couple of times she's had one she's ended up in hospital. I haven't heard from him since. Its really bothered me. I genuinely thought we were at least casual friends and now I'm not sure. I just feel like if I ever did need a chat about anything he wouldn't wanna know but I'm good for a bit of sex talk. I have the same issue with my ex. The only time he becomes super chatty is when we wants to talk filth at me. Just feel a bit like I'm everyone's whore...
I never really get called pretty its always sexy. I honestly don't see it myself but I get called it a lot. The last guy I was with seemed really nice before we met then basically went weird and told me within hours of meeting that he wanted to sleep with me. I just always end up feeling cheap and used not cared about.
I don't know if maybe I'm being naive and maybe all men want to talk dirty online / in texts once in a while but its seems like its all I get...
I just end up thinking, what am I for?
Recently I left a site I'd been going on for some time and so I went a step further and gave a guy from there my mobile number. He'd already given me his a few times but I'd always been too shy and had just stuck with talking online. We have similar interests and music tastes and I figured it wold be nice to stay in touch. We'd been texting quite a bit and stuff and I noticed I'd get a lot of drunk flirty ones. I wrote them off as silly and harmless but then they got a bit more graphic and sexual. I'm kind of terrible at sticking up for myself in situations like that. Anyway my mum got a cold and I mentioned that I was worried about her because the last couple of times she's had one she's ended up in hospital. I haven't heard from him since. Its really bothered me. I genuinely thought we were at least casual friends and now I'm not sure. I just feel like if I ever did need a chat about anything he wouldn't wanna know but I'm good for a bit of sex talk. I have the same issue with my ex. The only time he becomes super chatty is when we wants to talk filth at me. Just feel a bit like I'm everyone's whore...
I never really get called pretty its always sexy. I honestly don't see it myself but I get called it a lot. The last guy I was with seemed really nice before we met then basically went weird and told me within hours of meeting that he wanted to sleep with me. I just always end up feeling cheap and used not cared about.
I don't know if maybe I'm being naive and maybe all men want to talk dirty online / in texts once in a while but its seems like its all I get...
I just end up thinking, what am I for?