Recent content by Freakin_Amazin

It's been awhile since I've posted here, how's everyone doing? I've been up to my eyeballs in work for a long time now - staving off insanity while trying to get good grades. Anyway here's something I wrote a little while back when I realized that so far, the people I seem to choose for myself...

You think to yourself that your hand should have marriage rights by now...

I've been a bit down lately. Seems my mind has gotten twisted in every which way and I'm trying to untangle it while knowing alot of it is my fault. Let me explain... I had a girl like me alot. She was pretty much... deluded. I mean, it was crazy... but I never used her. And I told her I wasn't...

I go to the gym. Or go to the beach and run alone... sometimes it's scary, I hope I never get held up by anyone, cuz anyway I got barely any money... Running on the beach is pretty nice even though where I run there's barely anyone, sometimes it actually accentuates the lonelyness, but in a way...

Hi, welcome!

Thanks! Things are looking a little bit better nowadays... even though I have an exam today. Hopefully things'll get better and better.

The phone doesn't ring. It hasn't for some time, a reminder that I have very few friends, and all the things I have done wrong. For some reason the silence is comforting. I have gotten used to being alone, ever since I was in middle school and no one liked to be with me. At first I fought it, I...

Thanks! I wrote that in an oddly calm despair... LOL. It's been a rough year.

Poignant reminder's that I'm lonely... When I walk out of class and I see all these people, a walking, breathing mass, almost like a school of fish, and I feel like the diver sent down to study them... There are alot of times I've felt I'm just somebody inside of myself, like my body's just a...

Gosh, that's bad... I'm thankful for the freedoms we enjoy over here in the States (Puerto Rico's a territory and we have basically the same laws). If you really feel bad try to leave, that's the only thing I can tell you.

BEWARE my friend, these things are tricky. Don't go all out giving her gifts at first. Don't spend $300 on the first date. DO get her something small but with meaning (i.e. if she likes Spongebob get her something related to that). Start out small. Don't overwhelm her at first; take it from one...

Not worth it my man. But don't think they're out to hurt ya, she just doesn't know wtf she's doin. If she's not stupid she might actually figure it out, but few do. I know I did, and I'm paying for all my mistakes and then some... You're worth somethin bro, don't let her take that away from you...

Ahhh God.... I don't know what I'm going to do. How could I have been so supremely stupid? I have a hard time living with myself...

I wrote this in Electronics: I've lost my mind... I can't deny All these memories that make me want to cry I'll take the blame for all your pain I'm so sorry, I was scared to live again Made up my mind, I won't deny Painful memories that make me feel alive Crying soul and I'm so lost in life...

After my first breakup, I met a really nice girl who liked me alot. She would do all these things for me... One time she even baked me a cake for St. Valentine's, in the form of lips. She was after me for about a year and a half, but I could never bring myself to fall for her. I acted badly...