Recent content by Alex

I agree with the OP. There ARE different levels of loneliness. There are people on here who clearly have more contacts etc with the world then others. There are 'freaks' who have literally no-one. These people can't relate to other posts which say things like 'had a bad day today, my boss was...

Hey, Yea I know I probably should avoid her, but when I make a determined decision like that, I know in an hour or so I'll be hit by a 'what if'? and I'll imagine something great happening between us. Its like someone once said "I can deal with the despair, its the hope I can't stand"

I think I have all these elements quite badly...Just recently I've felt like my heads going to explode from the pain of not living. Maybe thats a good thing maybe I'll eventually explode and have to make some changes but right now it just feels bad. For instance tomorrows theres this social...

Thought this was a very well written post. I am similar to you in that I also have no friends at university, and am not that academially motivated etc. Have no energy during the day...Also feel lonely watching films at night, your post "i hate myself but I love life" resonates too, thats what...

I've just been realizing how I always feel like other people are having an amazing time and are extremly happy. This is what makes me extra stressed/jealous/bitter towards other people. Yet its ridiculous, no matter how successful you are, you get used to it and it is no longer amazing, it just...

Frozen Soul its me acting in the videos so its not like I wrote them and am letting someone else act and take the credit if thats what mean... Yesm and Mr Burns - thanks, I'm really glad you liked them, your comments mean a lot to me.

I mentally torture myself all the time...I going to try a strategy of not allowing myself to torture myself...Which means saying no to every anxiety, regret, what if?, depressive thought, indecisiveness. But I don't know if its possible, particually as I feel like I might be doing it almost all...

I went out again tonight for a university social thing...It was quite painful as expected, I spent most of the time talking to lecturers as it feels safer talking to older adults. But still I was always terrified I was about to be left on my own...and sometimes was. I felt myself acting most of...

Hey Frozen Soul, What do you mean by letting my friends use my talents? I know what you mean about I should just accept my mum but I know a lot of issues are probably down to her so I feel like I should keep her in my mind even if it makes me angry etc as this is probabaly more healthy over the...

Thanks guys. Don't worry about being polite about them either I don't mind any feedback is nice.

Sometimes I can have lots of energy, manic energy, I'll be imagining impressing some people being funny etc. But in real social situations, I have no energy at all. I'm a Zombie. Nearly 24 never had a proper relationship......I can't feel my emotions, all I feel is a lurking anxiety because I...

I went and met a girl in town today who I'd been speaking to on msn, which is a big thing for me, not really sure if it was a date but seemed almost like one. I have never had a girlfriend etc and live quite an isolated life. I knew it would be hard but it was even worse than I thought. While...

Hey, I just wanted to say we are not neccesariy just 'pack' animals as we also supposidely evolved from monkeys who lived in 'pair bonds'. But I thought this was a great post.

The loneliest dream I ever had was me and my family were for some reason in space, and then I suddenly started floating away from them, into endless space.

I always feel the end is near, not because I am suicidal but just coz I always think something bad is about to happen to me. Thats why I never think about the long term, I just try and survive the short term.