Recent content by JoeVegas

It’s been so long that I doubt our reality. So long I’ve buried emotions which plagued me that I’ve numbed them to occasional unpleasant heartache. It’s an artifact of a previous life.   Then Pandora puts on Blurry. It’s become rarer now that the music of our time is starting to feel like golden...

My mind rips and the mess spills out. No drugs. I timed it on purpose this way. Previous dreams of cleaning up, forgotten. I resent my hopes. The system has two degrees of freedom, the linear independent construct of the third vector yields another plane. That can't be right. Where is she...

Thanks everyone. Really. I had myself a good cry, which hasn't happened for quite a long time. I feel significantly better. ...and no, I have no delusions of being a poet. I just become overly melodramatic when the infinite sadness pierces through. I just need to cram it back in and move on...

Sometimes it's her, sometimes it's someone new. Sometimes it's sexual, but most of the time it's cute, hold you close, love you forever. Sometimes it ends happily, sometimes tragic, and sometimes it just fades into nonsense. But always, I wake up alone. Reluctant to wake fully and face my...

Hey ALL, As I'm sure many of you know, sometimes you just need to write. It's an amazing way to vent out emotions which may have no other appropriate channel. Back in the peak of my depression, I was doing so daily. I've got five spiral notebooks full of random spewing of emotions, via diary...

Every year since my first love, I spend New Years alone and bitter. Every year I promise myself the next one will be better. Now new years is around the corner and I'm faced with a new issue. Instead of passively waiting for new years to kick my ass, I've set up three potential dates. Any one...

I'm wondering, because I seem to have so many. They always come and go, but when they pile up it starts to become overwhelming. I currently have work problems, girl problems x2 (not at all the good kind), family problems, money problems, legal promblems (not serious but still annoying), car...

I dont know why but for the first time in a very long time I decided I'm not getting high anymore. Coincidentally, I feel like honeysuckle and I hate everything. I'm starving but there isn't a crumb of food in my place and I dont wanna go get fast food, again. I know I cant sleep but i need to try...

...point on the curve, as shown in figure 1.2(a). Such a line is called a secant line. If P(c,f(c)) is the... From my bible

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I've fallen into a state where I cannot find pleasure in anything. The thing I used to enjoy no longer grant me freedom from my constant grind. It's all a grind. I work more than anyone should. When I work, I can't wait to get off for no real reason. When I'm off, I constantly think of work...

I wish I didn't stay up all night everynight. I can't stop thinking about everything and nothing. There are so many things i did't accomplish and so many more things to plan for. Inevitably I will oversleep and have a shitty morning leading into the day. My daily handicap. Will I accomplish any...

Another day lost. I manage again to accomplish nothing, go nowhere and meet nobody. Again I procrastinate, starting none of the things I know I could do to improve myself. Another day where i sink deeper into the person who I wish I wasn't but do nothing about. Apathy? I certainly know this...

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imin a bad mood tonight. worse than usual and thats saying somethig. all my tread tonights are me mad and complaining and im sorry but now ive had sme drinks and im ready to pass out but first ill rant a lil more. the only two moods i know are really angry or really sad. neither are any fun and...