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Rosebolt
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Not litteraly. No need to call the police.
Anyway, there's this girl at work i got a crush on. I'll try to explain it fast.
Four weeks ago she started working at the place. A week later i go for a holiday for two weeks. Kind of missing her and all that useless stuff.
One week ago, going to work again, had a lot of trouble with nerves. Used my holiday entirely on trying to better myself, but figured this crush thing wasn't going to be a problem. She happens to call in sick, and actually didn't show up for the entire week. I had no idea what's going on. She's not 100% stable so i figured something happened.
Then she gets removed from the roster for this week. I saw that last week, so i was kind of relieved i could start forgetting about her, and move on with fixing this mess. I also wanted to review everything i'd learned, since the feelings for her kind of wiped it to the back of my head.
This morning i go to work, and then boom, she's walking in. Oke what the honeysuckle? Anyway, she turned out to be okay, so that was nice, but my mind went in racing mode.
We get along very well, we're kind of in the similar situation and all that. Even on the off chance she likes me too, i have no use of a relationship at this point of my life, i need to fix myself first. That'll take some years. I'm kind of hoping that if the situation does present itself, that i still have the willpower to say no, obviously explaining how and why and all.
I tried my best to ignore the feeling and keep focussing on what i must do, but i guess i didn't try hard enough. I meditated again today, but didn't get alot of options. Only options i could come up with were:
Make her hate me, easier to get over it then.
Try to crush on someone else, someone who i never see, or some random celebrity or something, something that i can more easily get rid of.
Not the smartest of options, at all.
So much for keeping it short. I tried.
Anyway, there's this girl at work i got a crush on. I'll try to explain it fast.
Four weeks ago she started working at the place. A week later i go for a holiday for two weeks. Kind of missing her and all that useless stuff.
One week ago, going to work again, had a lot of trouble with nerves. Used my holiday entirely on trying to better myself, but figured this crush thing wasn't going to be a problem. She happens to call in sick, and actually didn't show up for the entire week. I had no idea what's going on. She's not 100% stable so i figured something happened.
Then she gets removed from the roster for this week. I saw that last week, so i was kind of relieved i could start forgetting about her, and move on with fixing this mess. I also wanted to review everything i'd learned, since the feelings for her kind of wiped it to the back of my head.
This morning i go to work, and then boom, she's walking in. Oke what the honeysuckle? Anyway, she turned out to be okay, so that was nice, but my mind went in racing mode.
We get along very well, we're kind of in the similar situation and all that. Even on the off chance she likes me too, i have no use of a relationship at this point of my life, i need to fix myself first. That'll take some years. I'm kind of hoping that if the situation does present itself, that i still have the willpower to say no, obviously explaining how and why and all.
I tried my best to ignore the feeling and keep focussing on what i must do, but i guess i didn't try hard enough. I meditated again today, but didn't get alot of options. Only options i could come up with were:
Make her hate me, easier to get over it then.
Try to crush on someone else, someone who i never see, or some random celebrity or something, something that i can more easily get rid of.
Not the smartest of options, at all.
So much for keeping it short. I tried.
