Rapidly Spiralling Down

Poppydolphin said:

I'm finding Christmas Eve horrendously difficult ... each year the Christmas period feels worse. All around is reminders of how alone I am. I have no family. I'm 48, female and all of my friends have family - children, partners, parents, brothers, sisters, cousins, aunts, uncles. I don't have a single one of those. I'm not capable of meeting a partner due to experiences in my past. The future scares me so much. I try so hard to live only for the moment and not think ahead too much ... but it's hard when all around me are reminders of what I haven't got. I don't even have a job to throw myself into at the moment. I feel so empty. I've been ill over the past few days and it's now also unlikely that I'll be able to spend time with the friends I was going to see tomorrow as I don't want to pass my germs on to them. I feel so totally overwhelmed and don't know what to do ... there is nothing I can change in this.

I'm not expecting anyone to have a solution to this and I know that "family" isn't always a bed of roses .. I just needed to share. Thank you so much for reading and I hope you're having a lovely Christmas Eve yourselves.

xx

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Poppydolphin said:

I'm finding Christmas Eve horrendously difficult ... each year the Christmas period feels worse. All around is reminders of how alone I am. I have no family. I'm 48, female and all of my friends have family - children, partners, parents, brothers, sisters, cousins, aunts, uncles. I don't have a single one of those. I'm not capable of meeting a partner due to experiences in my past. The future scares me so much. I try so hard to live only for the moment and not think ahead too much ... but it's hard when all around me are reminders of what I haven't got. I don't even have a job to throw myself into at the moment. I feel so empty. I've been ill over the past few days and it's now also unlikely that I'll be able to spend time with the friends I was going to see tomorrow as I don't want to pass my germs on to them. I feel so totally overwhelmed and don't know what to do ... there is nothing I can change in this.

I'm not expecting anyone to have a solution to this and I know that "family" isn't always a bed of roses .. I just needed to share. Thank you so much for reading and I hope you're having a lovely Christmas Eve yourselves.

xx

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Poppydolphin said:

I'm finding Christmas Eve horrendously difficult ... each year the Christmas period feels worse. All around is reminders of how alone I am. I have no family. I'm 48, female and all of my friends have family - children, partners, parents, brothers, sisters, cousins, aunts, uncles. I don't have a single one of those. I'm not capable of meeting a partner due to experiences in my past. The future scares me so much. I try so hard to live only for the moment and not think ahead too much ... but it's hard when all around me are reminders of what I haven't got. I don't even have a job to throw myself into at the moment. I feel so empty. I've been ill over the past few days and it's now also unlikely that I'll be able to spend time with the friends I was going to see tomorrow as I don't want to pass my germs on to them. I feel so totally overwhelmed and don't know what to do ... there is nothing I can change in this.

I'm not expecting anyone to have a solution to this and I know that "family" isn't always a bed of roses .. I just needed to share. Thank you so much for reading and I hope you're having a lovely Christmas Eve yourselves.

xx

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Poppydolphin said:

I'm finding Christmas Eve horrendously difficult ... each year the Christmas period feels worse. All around is reminders of how alone I am. I have no family. I'm 48, female and all of my friends have family - children, partners, parents, brothers, sisters, cousins, aunts, uncles. I don't have a single one of those. I'm not capable of meeting a partner due to experiences in my past. The future scares me so much. I try so hard to live only for the moment and not think ahead too much ... but it's hard when all around me are reminders of what I haven't got. I don't even have a job to throw myself into at the moment. I feel so empty. I've been ill over the past few days and it's now also unlikely that I'll be able to spend time with the friends I was going to see tomorrow as I don't want to pass my germs on to them. I feel so totally overwhelmed and don't know what to do ... there is nothing I can change in this.

I'm not expecting anyone to have a solution to this and I know that "family" isn't always a bed of roses .. I just needed to share. Thank you so much for reading and I hope you're having a lovely Christmas Eve yourselves.

xx

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