Silvernight said:
It's true also that like attracts like. Whatever "vibration" you project outside, you're going to receive the same, that is, attract people that have a similar vibration. For example, if you think that such a thing as a real friendship does not exist, that it's just a fiction, and no one can be trusted, then this attitude will guarantee you'll never have a real friend until it lasts. You may attract people who also have a similar outlook, and obviously, you'll never be real friends because neither of you believes it's possible.
I've thought about what you're saying here quite a lot, and there is definately truth in it. But I can't help but feel that destiny and fate are playing a part in my experience as well and that no matter what I try it's not really going to make much difference until it's more 'naturally' ready to change. For whatever reason, it's feels like I'm not really 'meant' to have friends until the situation rights itself. I know that I play a part in my own destiny, but I have tried over the years and have lost - or sabotaged - everything. The situation is complex, however, because sometimes I feel like I will never get out of this situation because I have already experienced intense loneliness and isolation, and experiencing those things means that I am inferior to others. I have been called 'wierd' and 'billy no mates' on a number of occasions and when you are treated like that because you are lonely, shy, socially anxious etc then it's hard to counteract those attitudes.
Like attracts like, but when you have come so far down this path it becomes something so deep that you feel you are never going to retrace those steps. The results speak for themselves.