wildflower
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Hello. I am new here i think it's really interesting there is such a site like this cos it's really comforting and a great way for lonely people to communicate, reach out snd not feel alone. Knowing other people like me exist has truly helped me and i'm so thankful.
Well all my teen life i have been extremely shy, quiet and socially weird/awkward. I would snob attractive people and only speak to people who made me feel comfortable...which was anyone but populars or goodlooking people. I'm not unattractive or a loser but i'm average, considered pretty but i think im ok.
I'm 20 and still struggle with shyness. I've been called weird, strange, different, odd, funny, silly. I do think i am different frim majority of people and i don't know why. Guys don't notice me nor like me cos i kinda scare them by saying weird things. I have lost a lot of chick friends not that i had many at all...but i have none now. Why? Cos i'm hypersensitive, self centred, jealous and cared more about guys. I never had much interest in friendships, lik REAL deep friendships except when i was younger....but as i got older it felt weird. I like people, laughing, joking etc but nothing deeper or more. And with guys, i can't be JUST friends with guys. Another pary ofmy weirdness. I always dated the guys i spoke to or we'd drift apart or they are my bro's friends. So no chick or guy friends.
I stay at home most days reading books or watching movies or driving my mum around like a taxi to buy food cos she can't drive anymore.
I'm worrid i'll never meet as much guys or peop'e as i wantto purely cos i can't get myself to start it. I want it all to naturally come to me, like school did, and work, and facebook adds. So i'll just wait. One of the reasons whyi wanna stay single cos i can't bear to settle for anyone...but i'll never get out there. I'll never who's the right guy for me. What keeps me balanced about it is "I live and I'll die". When i'm dead, all this won't matter so who cares? I'm just gonna go with the flow.
I used to get really lonely and sad and cry...but that was mostly cos i felt i was supposed to go out with friends and do all the normal stuff...til i just stopped caring and accepted myself. There's a quote by Albert Einsten that goes "A woman that follows the crowd usually gets no further than the crowd, a woman who walks alone is likely to go places no one has been before." I like it cos it makes me feel better
Well all my teen life i have been extremely shy, quiet and socially weird/awkward. I would snob attractive people and only speak to people who made me feel comfortable...which was anyone but populars or goodlooking people. I'm not unattractive or a loser but i'm average, considered pretty but i think im ok.
I'm 20 and still struggle with shyness. I've been called weird, strange, different, odd, funny, silly. I do think i am different frim majority of people and i don't know why. Guys don't notice me nor like me cos i kinda scare them by saying weird things. I have lost a lot of chick friends not that i had many at all...but i have none now. Why? Cos i'm hypersensitive, self centred, jealous and cared more about guys. I never had much interest in friendships, lik REAL deep friendships except when i was younger....but as i got older it felt weird. I like people, laughing, joking etc but nothing deeper or more. And with guys, i can't be JUST friends with guys. Another pary ofmy weirdness. I always dated the guys i spoke to or we'd drift apart or they are my bro's friends. So no chick or guy friends.
I stay at home most days reading books or watching movies or driving my mum around like a taxi to buy food cos she can't drive anymore.
I'm worrid i'll never meet as much guys or peop'e as i wantto purely cos i can't get myself to start it. I want it all to naturally come to me, like school did, and work, and facebook adds. So i'll just wait. One of the reasons whyi wanna stay single cos i can't bear to settle for anyone...but i'll never get out there. I'll never who's the right guy for me. What keeps me balanced about it is "I live and I'll die". When i'm dead, all this won't matter so who cares? I'm just gonna go with the flow.
I used to get really lonely and sad and cry...but that was mostly cos i felt i was supposed to go out with friends and do all the normal stuff...til i just stopped caring and accepted myself. There's a quote by Albert Einsten that goes "A woman that follows the crowd usually gets no further than the crowd, a woman who walks alone is likely to go places no one has been before." I like it cos it makes me feel better