I enjoy being by myself. When I'm at a social gathering I count down to when it's appropriate to go home. I've been like this as long as I can remember. Missed out on a lot but did what I wanted to do. When I do converse with people I can get intense. My wife thinks this is why people don't like to talk to me. I'm a pretty open person but I do know when I know what I'm talking about and when others don't and this is when I can get intense. I have tried to grow in this area and I think I have but I can still be too much for people. I wish I wasn't so socially awkward.