PoisonFlowers
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I've always been a generally calm person who doesn't get riled up about stupid things, however it feels like my dad has chipped away at my tolerance until now I don't like what I see.
Every day, he just goes out of his way to piss me off. It didn't used to bother me because it's really stupid stuff like pinching me, hitting my arm, standing in my way, talking to me like an idiot (complete with condescending tone), calling me stupid, deliberately making me make way by acting all annoyed and then laughing saying "I'm only winding you up pahahaha." -_- Like I said, really stupid stuff. The thing is, he does it all the time and it's been like that for years. It's like having a very annoying younger brother.
Sometimes (like right now), it's like having anger coiled up in my chest, ready to snap at the slightest thing. I feel tense and it gives me a headache. It doesn't help that I'm generally not feeling to great at the moment either. The other day, I caught myself taking some of it out on my little brother (real one, not the dad lol) when he wasn't doing his work. I felt really bad afterwards, but it was as if it was just blowing out of me.
I zone out a lot at home too now, because I can't be bothered to respond to my dad's taunting. It's my brothers as well, but c'mon, he's my dad. Zoning out helps somewhat, but it doesn't get rid of the anger that seems to gradually build inside and I've started punching walls. It's ridiculous, I know! That's why it bothers me so much.
Does anyone know what I'm talking about? Do you know any tips for dealing with this anger which is completely out of proportion??
Every day, he just goes out of his way to piss me off. It didn't used to bother me because it's really stupid stuff like pinching me, hitting my arm, standing in my way, talking to me like an idiot (complete with condescending tone), calling me stupid, deliberately making me make way by acting all annoyed and then laughing saying "I'm only winding you up pahahaha." -_- Like I said, really stupid stuff. The thing is, he does it all the time and it's been like that for years. It's like having a very annoying younger brother.
Sometimes (like right now), it's like having anger coiled up in my chest, ready to snap at the slightest thing. I feel tense and it gives me a headache. It doesn't help that I'm generally not feeling to great at the moment either. The other day, I caught myself taking some of it out on my little brother (real one, not the dad lol) when he wasn't doing his work. I felt really bad afterwards, but it was as if it was just blowing out of me.
I zone out a lot at home too now, because I can't be bothered to respond to my dad's taunting. It's my brothers as well, but c'mon, he's my dad. Zoning out helps somewhat, but it doesn't get rid of the anger that seems to gradually build inside and I've started punching walls. It's ridiculous, I know! That's why it bothers me so much.
Does anyone know what I'm talking about? Do you know any tips for dealing with this anger which is completely out of proportion??