Ok maybe im weird, in fact i KNOW im weird, but a lot of what you posted actually makes a huge amount of sense to me.
Ok firstly im married so yeah ive had sex, we've been together for years and so we had a lot of sex, some good some bad some blah you know as is life, before him i only been with one other guy sex never really interested me in that way of got to lose my virginity as fast as i can. when i finally did, i didnt get what all the fuss was about, and to this day i still think sex is wildly over rated.
Dont get me wrong me and my husband have had some amazing mind blowing times, but i go through these weird phases where even the thought of sex, like you, disgusts me. I mean go figure, not like i havent been there but i can't explain it, my sex drive disappears and i cant even bare to think about it. And yeah kissing too, it makes me feel sick there have been times ive kissed my husband and felt kind of ill, and its not to be nasty he doesnt have rancid breath or anything its just something in my messed up mind.
I think i have issues. I have a friend whos surprisingly similar, but even shes worse off than me, shes crazy about her boyfriend, hes the only guy she ever had sex with and even then she was like 22 when they finally did have sex, but she doesnt like it, doesnt particularly enjoy it, she does it because she feels he has a need to but she could basically give or take. Interestingly we were both brought up with really religious parents, could that have some bearing on the situation?