though interesting, Lonesome Crow, your stories and adventures are not typical compared to other people's. Congratulations nonetheless, you are lucky....
by the way, are you a woman?
But since we're on the topic "single"... I have been single for over 2 years now. The girl before my 2 year hiatus, met on the internet. We were both looking for the same thing, companionship, a possible shot at something special, and then what came soon into the relationship, sex. the unspoken truth. maybe a little too soon. relationship lasted maybe 6 months and we hooked up last summer for some revisited "fun". anyway..... all women before her, early 20's drunk and high random fun.
I met different women last year, about 3. met one at school, one at a baseball game, and one my mother hooked me up with. All fell through the floor. I don't know the exact reason why none of those worked out but it might be me and not enough effort. Could be something deeper. It's not often I meet women. Sometimes they just fall into the perfect place for me. That's about it. I haven't had a one-night stand in a long time. I find it harder to connect with a woman these days in different aspects.
Went through a bad relationship when I was younger, late teens, I am now 26. Took a while to realize it, but there is a piece of my heart missing. Could be the reason for the botched relationships with previous women. honeysuckle just isn't the same when it comes to women. It all adds up to this day when I am thinking where I went wrong with them. I don't know if I can love again.. That's the real concern. Maybe I never loved before... thought I did.
My mental state is also not the same. A little warped. Could be the drugs, medications mixed with alcohol, childhood abuse, or everything. It is safe to say that to this day, I am not the same as I was before my 20's. I am not a total basketcase. I have a good personality most of the time. No one really knows what goes on in my mind.. they couldn't handle it. and I don't always let it show. Just always hesitate with women.
But I am in a new chapter of my life and I do the best I can with the problems. I know someone is out there for me. I want someone right or "perfect" for me. It could take the rest of my life. If I had known it would be this difficult, I would have taken it more serious in the past.
The truth about it... relationships are cool and all, but some people I know are glad they are single when it comes to the drama part. I can say the same. What I really miss about it, is spending the quality time with someone who attracts me and vice versa, mentally and physically.. and oh yea, the sexual intercourse.
However, I do not miss having no freedom to do what I want when I want. Freedom can come with a down-to-earth partner who doesn't let their insecurities get in the way. Maybe get lucky and be in a balanced relationship. Most of my friends have a significant other. And I am most always the odd number in a group, or just by myself in public. Just waiting for the day something great happens to me.