My sister died in a car wreck in September. Its something that happened so suddenly I guess I really haven't dealt with it. I was dealing with as much as I could so everyone else could grieve. I had moments where I thought I was gonna completely lose it, and having counseled in the past, I knew it would happen as soon as I had the chance to. However it never happened, and now I wonder if there is something wrong with me or maybe I'm just really good at coping with things. The guy that hit her was drunk and on drugs and having worked in rehab trying to help with people who have those problems it kinda pissed me off. I thought I would flip way more than I did, which wasn't at all. Plus my sister worked to help women who have been domestically abused. So I thought I would end up hating the world, but no. I mean i thought I would have some kind of breakdown, but I haven't. Now the man is having his trial 2 days before my birthday and 7 days before my sisters. Still no big response which is not normal for me, I get pissed at things like this and here I am perfectly fine. Unless I'm not and just don't know it. I know all about the stages of grief and know that each person goes through them differently, but I don't feel like I've gone through them at all. Im hoping talking about it will help me out. I know everyone goes through dealing with death of loved ones, and am hoping someone has some insight. Even though I would like to think I can deal with anything all by myself, and maybe that's my problem.