Now people are making demonic down-talking bizarre sociopathic assumption statements at me again, some woman... (guys do this too).... some woman who i had on my Yahoo buddy list for about 4 or 5 days just attacked me at random for no reason... she said an assault i wont repeat, then the second assault was "I dont think you should be dependent on me as an only friend -- it dfoesnt make any sense because i told her im at multiple places talking to multiple people and never said anything to indicate such a thing
what people do is make random degrading assaults where they randomly attack you with darkness & evil, with you having said nothing at all to perpetuate that assault. Those are demons really, they are nothing more that sociopaths. They always say things I would never say in a million years -- you have to find your own like kind who is like you and not a demon who does strange random assaults that you yourself would never do if you lived a thousand years old.
Now see if karma exists, she will go talk to someone, and then that person will talk down to her, make bizarre random attacks suddenly for no reason out of hatred and demonic darkness, and etc. People should take their own medicine and suffer from their own bizrre sociopathy reflected back to them. suffer from their own evil. If someone uses someone then sleeps with married men, their next partner should abuse them or sleep with married women -- let them suffer from their own evil back to them. **** sociopaths are even human, they are demons in human form.
Alonewith2cats said:
tone303 said:
I have been alone 95% of my adult life, where i only see a store clerk as only human contact
the other 5% was involvement with sociopaths who frauded and abandoned me when done using me.
Because this is my situation WITH using every effort, every method possible my entire adult life, even using around 30 to 35 social sites and in the past going out alone hundreds of times........because of that, i would say I do fear being single for life, which would be worse than death of course, its utter destruction into constant misery to the point of physical illness from it.
I am at a loss because ive done maximum effort over maximum time, with absoluetely zero results whatsoever. I have never had any success in life socially or otherwise, since birth. Not one honest effort has ever produced any results, and life continued to slowly worsen.
A person should not be forced into isolation against their will & decade(s) of best efforts. That is then destruction of that person into utter misery & constant suffering. Then when that person reveals all of this, He/She will likely go under attack, even on support forums, i have been under very heavy attack by Low-IQ sociopaths that reply with bizarre replies. I dont know about here, I just got here to this forum.
I think maybe i should use words like total-isolation more than loneliness, because theres all these people married, or having relationships, or getting laid, going out with friends, have family they live with or have children that still talk about loneliness.
What I mean by lonely is total isolation despite thousands of efforts over decades, No family, no friends, no kids, no Love, nothing, total isolation with store clerk as only human contact; despite meeting hundreds of people and trying everything since the 1990s. So I ought to call it forced-rejection and utter-agony-isolation instead, to discriminate between the two kinds. There comes a point to where the amount of loneliness/isolation/forced-rejection makes one physically ill, even shaky & with daily PTSD attacks from it. It just all depends on the amount of loneliness. the amount of isolation.
Isolation is far worse than having people around but feeling something is missing and some level of lonely. Yeah its far worse believe me, to the point of things like appetite loss pacing, and shaking in a PTSD-like condition.
Have you tried meet up groups, volunteering your time or joining a group of people who do anything that interests you? I just started attending Sunday Assembly meetings that happen once per month because I'm not religious so I don't do church but this allows me to have a church-like experience and find community. I've only gone once so far, I'm just getting started and it's scary meeting people I don't know. I'm socially awkward with people I don't know. But it's a start and I'm going to attend every month and I did have some conversation over pizza with some people after the meeting and next Saturday I'm going to join them with volunteer work, picking up trash on the beach. Do anything and everything to get involved and meet and interact with people. Have you really done the maximum you can do with absolute zero results??? Social media sites are not the way to make friends. This causes loneliness. You have to go out into the world!
Thanks for your reply but its bizarre in this sense
I just said i went out alone thousands of times, used 35 sites and do extreme putting myself out in the world
then you replied with "put your self out in the world"
I have this happen all of the time where I post something then someone replies what I already posted
Like if I say Im from chicago, someone will reply and say "have you ever been to chicago?" its gotten strange
Yes i posted in other spots where you didnt see that I used meetup groups, I used them for an entire year, no luck -- with that one its not your fault you didnt know because that was in other posts
but i dont see how I could say I do extreme maximum effort over maximum time, and go out hundreds to over a thousand times -- then you reply with "you need to go out"
thats bizarre. sorry.
Yes I really have done maximum effort, truly, to the point of still going out and then i would cry and shake on the outing, THAT much effort.
And I do social sites as well , you cant really say thats not the way to meet people as I myself met 15 people in person from online and millions have even got married that way, so why would you type that as well?
I dont understand? But in any case, going out alone hundreds of times over decades, using meetupgroups, i did have some volenteering MANY years ago as well -- none of that work
I honestly have never met anyone compatible with me, when I thought I did, they were sociopaths, two of which had sudden over-night amnesia about me, others who did laughing hangup calls to me after claiming to Love me
If i told you ; you wouldnt believe what I have been through, it includes people i was close to having sudden amnesia about me, then telling me to die and disappearing forever. every person ever willing to get to know me was very demonic, im not kidding, im not having distorted thoughts, Im not schizo-affective. and if i told you more details you would see its things that cannot be hallucinated or distorted thoughts, things like sudden amnesia... things like suddenly changing over night and attacking me for no reason then having affairs with married men and saying "Tone now you have another bad story to tell others! Goodbye!"
You have no clue the evil I have been exposed to. this is WITH using meetups and going out hundreds of times.
I wont be able to deal with your replies though, so if theres any intelligent , open hearted people, who have empathy, arent sociopaths, they can try and PM me for chat.
