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Have I wasted all my years away so far? I am 17, male, fat and i feel like i have had a very wasted life so far. I have never had a girlfriend and every time a ask a girl i get shut in the friend zone or i just about to and sh likes someone elese and then i never tell her the way i feal. i still like her too but i cant get her out of my mind. dont call me a staker or any things because i have moved on i am happy for her but she still doent know even after 2 years now.i think that might be the reson i havent bean able to get her out of my mind .now my friends, i have a few friends. but ony one true friend. i have never been that social. i have been only 2 dances in high school and the first one was because i liked a girl who was going te other time was i was helping out there. i am a vice priesent for a lagre club at school but it seems like it is a act or a mask i put on when i am there or at school. i feel like i cant let anyone in at times. i also feel like i kept my persnal life and school/ socail life spaprite. because i am sort of socal at school and i know its like a conpletly diffrent person there. then i some class i am the quiet guy. if i was in a movie i would be in the backround and noone woul notice me.
i also think i am dumb i have a 1.9 GPA.got a 16 on my ACT i am in the bottom 25% of the class rank to . i know i am bad at taking tests so that doesnt help. and i even filaild at my driving test in the first 5 mins but i am a good driver. i think it might be a like in self-confidice. any way my spelling and grammer are crap and i want to go to collage even a 2 year coagle but i know i dont have the grades. i dont even know what i want to become. but a iam decent on computers i know a litte more then te verage person would knows.
well i do fell deprresed every so days by all this and i know it runs i the family to. that does't help. i fell like i cant tell my parnts this stuff soi am telling the wholw world insted lol. **** it i hate when i use that. but the only person who i could talk to was my brother but he moved out awhile back.
also so i feel bipolar, migkt even have ADD never been tested though
so with telling you all this tell me what you think
also tell me if i should move this to a diffrent thered
- James +_+
i also think i am dumb i have a 1.9 GPA.got a 16 on my ACT i am in the bottom 25% of the class rank to . i know i am bad at taking tests so that doesnt help. and i even filaild at my driving test in the first 5 mins but i am a good driver. i think it might be a like in self-confidice. any way my spelling and grammer are crap and i want to go to collage even a 2 year coagle but i know i dont have the grades. i dont even know what i want to become. but a iam decent on computers i know a litte more then te verage person would knows.
well i do fell deprresed every so days by all this and i know it runs i the family to. that does't help. i fell like i cant tell my parnts this stuff soi am telling the wholw world insted lol. **** it i hate when i use that. but the only person who i could talk to was my brother but he moved out awhile back.
also so i feel bipolar, migkt even have ADD never been tested though
so with telling you all this tell me what you think
also tell me if i should move this to a diffrent thered
- James +_+