jjessea
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Have you ever knowingly let a person take advantage of you out of sheer loneliness? I have, twice. One just recently.
When someone is manipulating me they actively interact with me and get involved with my life. It's usually pretty obvious, but the ever present shadow of personal isolation disappears for a little while. Once gone, it's like a weight is lifted off of my life, and it's such a relief that I just let the manipulation happen, and even actively participate in it.
I just let someone do this to me and I knew it was going on while it was happening. She was a horrible person in many different ways. But she could be sweet, is very beautiful, and had exactly the type of look that attracts me. The fact the the isolation was gone for a while was a relief, but it was alternatively akin to undergoing an invasive operation, and volunteering to let yourself be paralyzed but not sedated during the procedure.
The situation itself wasn't much more than an inconvenience and a little financially costly, but not anymore than about half paycheck, so not too bad on that account. It was more the acute awareness of how desperate I am, and how little self regard I actually have. That, and just watching myself let someone trample all over me because I'm so alone was just awful.
Are all lonely people easy targets? Or is it just me?
Yeah, prolly just me...
When someone is manipulating me they actively interact with me and get involved with my life. It's usually pretty obvious, but the ever present shadow of personal isolation disappears for a little while. Once gone, it's like a weight is lifted off of my life, and it's such a relief that I just let the manipulation happen, and even actively participate in it.
I just let someone do this to me and I knew it was going on while it was happening. She was a horrible person in many different ways. But she could be sweet, is very beautiful, and had exactly the type of look that attracts me. The fact the the isolation was gone for a while was a relief, but it was alternatively akin to undergoing an invasive operation, and volunteering to let yourself be paralyzed but not sedated during the procedure.
The situation itself wasn't much more than an inconvenience and a little financially costly, but not anymore than about half paycheck, so not too bad on that account. It was more the acute awareness of how desperate I am, and how little self regard I actually have. That, and just watching myself let someone trample all over me because I'm so alone was just awful.
Are all lonely people easy targets? Or is it just me?
Yeah, prolly just me...