Josey wales
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Hello everyone, I am twenty-something guy from eastern europe and I am glad that I can join this forum. Here is my story. I am from totally dysfunctional family and this ruined my life (so far). My father is a messed-up alcoholic and he was attacking me in past without any reason, he even threatened to shoot me (multiple times, he unfortunately owns a gun). Since I was 14, he was not employed. My mother is really weird, she never wanted divorce. She has a good job, so she spends all day there. When I was teenager, my life was horrible. I had only little in common with my schoolmates at high school and I was really shy, because I was ashamed for my father and poverty I lived in. Through my teenage years I lost most of childhood friends and I made only a few new friends. When I was approximately 16 years, I started using drugs and after a while I was taking drugs on daily basis. I did it mainly to escape horrible reality, which was unbearable. (I kicked this habit in third year of studies at university). After I finished high school, I enrolled on prestigious university. My life become even more horrible. I was afraid of people and I fell into deep depression. First two years of university studies I was still living with my parents. It was really hard. I did not have good studying environment at home, my father was drinking heavily every day, and from time to time he was shouting rude words on us, threating us, throwing our stuff out of window. There was no one to help me, I was totally alone. All the time I was pretending before others that my family is ok, because I could not stand such shame. Now I am finishing university as a totally broken man. I am completely alone, I am afraid of people and there is nothing to look forward to. I have never had a relationship, which would last more than a few weeks. There is no one for me, because I am poor and no reasonable parent will allow his daughter to date someone, who is from such a bad family like I am. Thanks for reading. I am sorry for mistakes, I am not from English speaking country.