Hi everyone, i'm new here, found this forum googling about... well... you can guess it
so, here's a little introduction about myself: i'm 24, i live in italy, and i'm.. lonely. I think i ended up being alone because of 2 reasons: bad luck and bad decisions.
about the bad luck: i've always been a friendly guy... never had much problems making new friends as i get along with pretty much anyone, but i think i unfortunately ended up hangin out with the wrong people.
And here comes the bad decisions:
in the last years of high school i got tired of my crew... they were basically being ******** most of the time, they were the kind of people that keep you as a friend only because they need you for some reason, they don't care about you in the least and don't miss an occasion to show it.
So, i just cut it out with them.
I still had friends at school, and furthermore, the person i loved was there too, so i didn't really feel the need to find some new friends outside of school.
then, school ended and over time i got to meet school friends less and less, up to the point in which i am now, basically i got only 1/2 friends from school that i hear from time to time but nothing more.
and now for the pathetic part:
i mentioned that i loved a girl from my class at school. yeah well, fell in love for her on my 2nd year, and i was still in love up to some months ago... i knew nothing would have ever happened between us, i never confessed to her (i don't think i'm her type, and she always had a boyfriend, and when she didn't, she had always someone else in mind...) but i always kept dreaming and hoping that maybe someday...
that makes up for like 10 years i've "waited for her". i feel stupid. i'm not the kind of guy that feels the urge to just be with someone just to not be alone, when i fall in love with someone it's only her i want and couldn't care less about the others. (i didn't mention, but it's obvious, i didn't had a girlfriend all this time)
well, i finally forgot her just a while ago. but i got myself in a worse situation. As i spend most of the time online, i accidentally found myself chatting with a girl, which lives some hundreds of km away from me.... and guess what, yes, i fell for her. But this time is far worse, because we talk very often, and i know she's in love with someone else (she didn't mention it ever, but it's very obvious for various reasons) and everytime she writes something that reminds me that, it hurts pretty much. tried/trying to forget her, to not talk to her, but she just keeps popping again and again, and suggests me that she cares about my friendship.
well, that's pretty much all. i've already written more than i wanted to =P sorry for my english, i'm italian and i don't really know how to phrase some things correctly.
so, here's a little introduction about myself: i'm 24, i live in italy, and i'm.. lonely. I think i ended up being alone because of 2 reasons: bad luck and bad decisions.
about the bad luck: i've always been a friendly guy... never had much problems making new friends as i get along with pretty much anyone, but i think i unfortunately ended up hangin out with the wrong people.
And here comes the bad decisions:
in the last years of high school i got tired of my crew... they were basically being ******** most of the time, they were the kind of people that keep you as a friend only because they need you for some reason, they don't care about you in the least and don't miss an occasion to show it.
So, i just cut it out with them.
I still had friends at school, and furthermore, the person i loved was there too, so i didn't really feel the need to find some new friends outside of school.
then, school ended and over time i got to meet school friends less and less, up to the point in which i am now, basically i got only 1/2 friends from school that i hear from time to time but nothing more.
and now for the pathetic part:
i mentioned that i loved a girl from my class at school. yeah well, fell in love for her on my 2nd year, and i was still in love up to some months ago... i knew nothing would have ever happened between us, i never confessed to her (i don't think i'm her type, and she always had a boyfriend, and when she didn't, she had always someone else in mind...) but i always kept dreaming and hoping that maybe someday...
that makes up for like 10 years i've "waited for her". i feel stupid. i'm not the kind of guy that feels the urge to just be with someone just to not be alone, when i fall in love with someone it's only her i want and couldn't care less about the others. (i didn't mention, but it's obvious, i didn't had a girlfriend all this time)
well, i finally forgot her just a while ago. but i got myself in a worse situation. As i spend most of the time online, i accidentally found myself chatting with a girl, which lives some hundreds of km away from me.... and guess what, yes, i fell for her. But this time is far worse, because we talk very often, and i know she's in love with someone else (she didn't mention it ever, but it's very obvious for various reasons) and everytime she writes something that reminds me that, it hurts pretty much. tried/trying to forget her, to not talk to her, but she just keeps popping again and again, and suggests me that she cares about my friendship.
well, that's pretty much all. i've already written more than i wanted to =P sorry for my english, i'm italian and i don't really know how to phrase some things correctly.