I have really low self esteem, I feel so weird and freakish. I am short, small hands, small penis, I look like a child, I have low testosterone, deformed knees, I have depression, anxiety, disturbing sexual intrusive thoughts (OCD symptom).
I feel really unworthy of being with a girl in a romantic relationship especially a sexual one. After my religious services I always tell myself I am going to talk to one of the women there, never can, and if I do I act like a dork and it's always really awkward. I think most women view me like a teddy bear or a cartoon character. I think most view just as a "nice guy" but I don't think any view me as attractive.
I feel really unworthy of being with a girl in a romantic relationship especially a sexual one. After my religious services I always tell myself I am going to talk to one of the women there, never can, and if I do I act like a dork and it's always really awkward. I think most women view me like a teddy bear or a cartoon character. I think most view just as a "nice guy" but I don't think any view me as attractive.