lawrencepa
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I don't know what makes me so unlikable. I have a few acquaintances which some of them used to be close friends. My confidence plummeted in early adulthood and has been this way for past 5 years and I'm 26 now. Before I was outgoing I had women in my life and had an active social life. Now I have hardly any energy to go out and I'm scared of certain social situations such as parties. What I do know for certain is I'm introverted, have low self esteem and I have bipolar (I've had manic episodes which I'm on medication for, not sure about being depressed). I'm just fed up of letting life pass me by. I wish I could communicate confidently again. It's pointless online dating as I couldn't charm anyone right now. I'm fat with average looks facially but I don't think that's enough to get a girlfriend. I need a personality too. I want to do more with life rather than just watch it pass by. I get too anxious to go out and date or for parties. Basically I hate meeting new people. I'm terrified of heights, speeches and I have a lot of anxieties regarding my future. I think I have it worse than everyone because everyone I meet comes across as well rounded compared to me and I don't know how I can learn to accept myself or at least improve my social skills