edgecrusher
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now that i am jobless, i have had some time to reflect on myself. i have realized that i want to participate in society as little as possible. i dont like people, in general i mean. there are of course individuals that i do like. but i rarely keep up with but a few people. and im ok with this. i generally like being alone. when my sister or roommate have people over and there is a gathering in the living room i may stay out there for a few minutes but 99% of the time i end up in my room playing video games or watching movies/tv shows alone. it is SO against my nature to do otherwise. now i wouldnt mind finding that one person to share the things i like with that gets me, because she is the same. but being an insanely shy 30 year old male virgin who doesnt want kids and prefers to stay home, leaves me with very little options in that regard. i feel like finding someone compatible with me is a VERY longhsot. now despite that i have met someone online that i really like and we have been talking for almost a year now. but after 2 failed attempts for us to meet due to both of us getting laid off i feel like the distance is making things stale. and to be honest im not sure exactly how serious either of us is about turning it into something. i feel like there is definitely something there though. again, the distance makes it hard to tell. either way we have become very good friends.
so here i am, jobless and with less than a month to find a new job. since i have no real skills or artistic value i will end up with some retail related job that forces me to be the complete opposite of what i am. as a result i am finding it hard to get motivated to find one of these jobs. i am feeling so lost right now and i have no idea what to do.
so here i am, jobless and with less than a month to find a new job. since i have no real skills or artistic value i will end up with some retail related job that forces me to be the complete opposite of what i am. as a result i am finding it hard to get motivated to find one of these jobs. i am feeling so lost right now and i have no idea what to do.