Bluerose said:
Bluey said:
"be a complete loser"
"I was used to having a GF."
Don't ever mention that again!!
That's another reason that I want2 die... I never experience a relationship, I always get rejected!! It's very embarrassing 2never have a bf... I'm in so much pain I just want2 end it all...
Hay, Don't be beating yourself up like this. Its just not worth it.
BIG
(((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))) FOR YOU.
Come on now. Nothing is worth getting this down about.
The last relationship I was in ended when I was 18. It lasted 9 moths and the one be for that the year be for lasted the same amount of time.
Since that time, just after the last GF I had to go into hospital and have surgery. I finished work and then shortly after that moved out into my own place. My life and me has changed 10 fold since I was last in a relationship. I don't hold out that I well ever meat someone to spend the rest of my life with anymore.
Something inside tells me that I well spent the rest of my life alone. Am not being depressing when I tell you this. Its just the way I feel. Am 33 now, nearly 34. If I have not had a GF in the last 16 years what chance is there in meeting someone in the next 16 years. Well there is always hope.
But even with all that in mined I still believe I can have a good life. Whither I share that life with someone or not I intend to life the best way I can.
It would be nice to cuddle someone sometimes. This I would very much like. It dose not make you a loser cos your single. There are plenty of ppl out there that never meat the right person that have a very good life. Most ppl end up on there own in the end anyway. There partner passers away early then them. At lest you and me well all ready know how to take care of ourselves with out someone else there.
If your really this down and your thinking things like ending it then I beg you to go see your doctor first. Pick up the phone to someone like a helpline.
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Pleas, you have nothing to lose.
I do still think of this things. Like ending it all. But I know I would never try it. I made that decision a long time ago now. I don't always like this life but I know I am not going to do anything stupid like that. So I Guss even though sometimes I feel sorry for myself I just try and get on with it.
I would so put my arms around you if I was there. I think a HUG would do us both some good.
I don't know whats on the other side. I do have a faith that ppl like us well be given something absolutely amazing for the hurt and pain we have felt down here.
ppl become well know for lots of things. Our queen we have here in the UK knights ppl for the good deeds they do for others and for struggles that a person makes. You Vera really see a normal person get knighted. When every single day there is ppl like me and you that have our own battles going on that you have to be far far stronger to win then most of this big stars have to be who get given this awards. Our award well be given in the next place. You hold on and I am sure you well think this life was worth it.
You are a special person and the pain you are feeling well make you stronger to help other ppl one day. Have you thought of doing some voluntary work? You have to find away where you not having this feelings. Anything that takes your mined off it.
When you read this make a plan to go for a walk or somthing. Take some deep breaths and try and think of the good things that this life has. there is many many good things. I went round a big tourist place in this big house that's near me. there was a lad probably a bit younger then me. He was a very big guy and you can see he struggles with he's weight. He looked at me and gave me a little smile. I thought to my self if he has ever been to this place where where at here on the net. See I did not look at him badly. He was doing something I would not had done alone. Well I might now I have seen him there. If he can do it then I can. I only looked at him with respect and the thought of he seems a nice guy to be friends with.
You don't know what affect your actions and the things you do well have on other ppl. I to that guy am a perfect stranger. But he for just the breathiest of interaction from nothing moor then a smile gave me some inspiration.
God bliss you and be as happy as you can
Nothing is worth feeling this down for