stork_error
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I miss myself. I miss who i was 5 years ago, before my x destroyed my faith in love, kindness, goodness, happiness etc...
I miss myself. I miss who I was before I started working in this industry full of psychopathic human soul eating robots.
I miss that I use to look younger than my age because I ate healthy and slept well and didn't really know the kind of stress that came with my x and my job until my x and my job. I don't eat healthy anymore and I don't sleep properly anymore because of my work hours.
I used to be pretty, and skinny and now I am worn looking and mildly overweight.
I don't go out anymore, I haven't danced in ages, I don't even listen to music anymore, I haven't been to a concert in ages.
I didn't really even enjoy my last vacation very much as I feel that my familiar travel destination that I've gone to for over 15 years has really gone to hell and is now unsafe.
The last man I dated was oldish, too old for me, and it made me feel old too.
If I made effort could I still reclaim myself? Get my hair done, loose some weight, start going out, dancing, travelling.
Life is boring to me, and I'm tired of having no life, but when I plan to have a life, it seems boring too. Nothing excites me anymore. I suppose I should get my hair done or something... at least try to feel pretty.
Whats it called when you have no interest in life, or hobbies or activities, or no desire for love, or looking half decent, or loosing weight or having a life.
Total and absolute lack of desire for anything except some food that tastes good and sleeping on white sand ocean beach at late sunset listening to music from the bars in the background.
Otherwize... nothing nothing nothing.
Has anybody been through a relationship or single life altering trauma that they feel might have been the actual trigger for this mess of loneliness.
I miss myself. I miss who I was before I started working in this industry full of psychopathic human soul eating robots.
I miss that I use to look younger than my age because I ate healthy and slept well and didn't really know the kind of stress that came with my x and my job until my x and my job. I don't eat healthy anymore and I don't sleep properly anymore because of my work hours.
I used to be pretty, and skinny and now I am worn looking and mildly overweight.
I don't go out anymore, I haven't danced in ages, I don't even listen to music anymore, I haven't been to a concert in ages.
I didn't really even enjoy my last vacation very much as I feel that my familiar travel destination that I've gone to for over 15 years has really gone to hell and is now unsafe.
The last man I dated was oldish, too old for me, and it made me feel old too.
If I made effort could I still reclaim myself? Get my hair done, loose some weight, start going out, dancing, travelling.
Life is boring to me, and I'm tired of having no life, but when I plan to have a life, it seems boring too. Nothing excites me anymore. I suppose I should get my hair done or something... at least try to feel pretty.
Whats it called when you have no interest in life, or hobbies or activities, or no desire for love, or looking half decent, or loosing weight or having a life.
Total and absolute lack of desire for anything except some food that tastes good and sleeping on white sand ocean beach at late sunset listening to music from the bars in the background.
Otherwize... nothing nothing nothing.
Has anybody been through a relationship or single life altering trauma that they feel might have been the actual trigger for this mess of loneliness.